Friday, May 30, 2008

I said I would and I did.
I went for ear piercing.
HAHA.

Finally, our first week of school for the holidays ended.
YAY. This marks the end of school. temporarily.
But there's still homework to keep everyone busy.

The CO meeting was nothing more than a lecture.
I feel so happy to leave CO.
HAHA.

Then Winnie, Ruishan and me went bishan library.
My motive for going there was for the aircon and sightseeing.
Apparently, there was a twist in events.
There's this event called teens to teens, I think.
It's basically a reading programme.
I was like, I don't read?
I'm a super mugger, remember?
-.-
Ruishan was in her own world of books.
Winnie and I went around for spaces.
The extensions, which I called turbular outgrowths,
was like a compartment jutting out for people to use.
I wanted that, but all of them are occupied.

At this moment, this bunch of people approached us again,
for the second time, because winnie looks horribly easy to lure.
I said NO and walked away.
Winnie gave in to the temptation of food.
It's a reading programme, what's with the food?
I was pulled in, because it was, at face value, wrong to pangseh winnie.
I gave in and went into that stupid room.
Comforted by the phrase, 'you can leave anytime',
I was indeed prepared to leave at anytime.

It was a total mistake to go in.
It's a reading programme, and I'm doing maths.
HAHA.
Then they offered me coffee when I said I didn't want any.
Moreover, they being younger than us supposedly,
thought we were sec ones.
I was very pissed off.
Do I look that immature?
I thought I looked mature.

Anyway, they started playing wacko.
A game I hate.
I dearly wanted to leave, but I stayed on for the coffee.
Winnie was a little slow to react, and she completely freezed the entire atmosphere.
There were children around.
They were childish, which is a fact.
They went winnie?
WINNIE THE POOH.
Hello pooh.

I sms'ed ruishan for help.
Winnie gave in to the temptation of food. Save me. (:
She completely ignored it, because I added a (:
I always add (: to my sms'es.

Before they could do something boring again,
I decided I better get going.
It sucks.
Maybe it was pretty fun and childish.
I was insulted and it was cheapskate.
It's like corroding my dignity.
I just cannot stand it.

I went in for the sake of winnie's stomach.
It'll be the first and last time in my life.
I never liked reading.
I just can't feel the passion for reading.
You know?

Anyway, I pierced my ears at Junction8's goldheart.
Because the rest didn't offer that service. Lousy.
It costed $35.
I stoned upon hearing the price.
Since I already asked, might as well do it.
There's pain. Duh.
The pain is comparable to squeezing your earlobes really hard.
After an hour, the pain subsided.
There'll be occasional pain when I twist the earrings.
She said I could.
Since it was so costly, picked the pair of earrings that looked most expensive.
I picked one with diamonds.
HAHA.
It was a five-petal flower with the middle, so 6 diamonds.
My aunt thought it was real.
HAHA.

I like them.
Still looking forward to putting on my gingerbreadies.
I don't think I'm allergic to metal earrings.
=D

Thursday, May 29, 2008

This holiday seriously doesn't look like one.
I only realised that today.
Why are you doing homework again?
Because this needs to be handed up tml.
Bleh, Aint this a holiday?
I paused and pondered.
YEA RIGHT.

Actually, it's pretty fun being a super mugger.
HAHA.
I can pretty much just bury my troubles in my mugging comrades.
Anyway, my pens went out of ink.
One word-Pathetic.
Thanks for lending me your pen geraldine.
I didn't really do much today again.
I guess I'm trying to buy time to revise for 'O' levels.
Doing homework sucks.

Apparently, at this point in time,
everything seem to just suck.
But I enjoy this kind of feeling.
This slacked atmosphere is totally way off from what I wanted to achieve.
Because I'm a super mugger!
Like who else in 4R3 is'nt?
HAHA.

Suddenly I had the urge to do ear piercing this week.
I pop'ed the question and my mother agreed.
I intend to do it tml.
I'll keep it a secret, unless you read this.
I guess I can always apologise for pangseh'ing serene and ruishan,
and do mine before 'O' levels.

Don't ask me why, even I don't know the reason. (:
Seriously.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Yesterday I and winnie went geraldine's house.
I admit I was tempted by the offer of going her rarely offered house,
but doing this behind her mother seems wrong.
We succumbed to the temptation anyway.
We played taiti and had our eyes glued to the television.
I was feeling guilty, because I placed my material needs before my real plot.
My plot to mug hard and have everyone green with envy.
HAHAHAHA.
Of course, this was never my motive.
I study and do well in order to fit into my desired expectations.

Today I went as an extra to denise's house.
My first motive was to just see her house.
Next, I thought maybe studying at her house would make my mugging more effective.
As you know, yeeling would go home and switch on the tv first before everything.
Thanks for allowing me to just hang around.
But your project a bit slack eh?
Chengcheng, christine and me ended up doing amaths together.
Thanks denise, for being such a wonderful host.
Her house was great, the garden completely caught my eye.
Although there was a no water pond, I liked the corniferous tree.
It was definitely fun, seeing Ruishan sound like an elderly.
=D

I can't stand leaving my assignments drooping, being halfway done.
My inability to overcome my temptations has definitely led me to slow down my pace significantly.
When we should be stepping up on our revision, this is no time to play and fool around.
Seriously, why didn't I even think of the consequences before I act?
It's not that I regret, I just feel guilty.
Not adhering to my principles really sucks.
I told myself in the morning that I was supposed to mug.
In the end, I led myself go astray again.
This is fucking bad.

I need to clarify something on what happened on TJ's Mardi Gras.
I was not irritated after seeing him.
I just stoned there.
I wanted to listen to what my heart has to say.
Apparently, only stoning can allow me to hear my heartbeat clearly.
Walking around chasing after him aint going to let me do that.
Things are different now.
It's no longer the same anymore.
Grabbing onto that so-called hope aint getting me anywhere.
It makes me look like an idiot.
Now, my heart's not responding to him at all.
No significant change in hearbeat detected.
What can I do?
Cry my heart out?
No one's dead yet.
Maybe the infatuation.

I expected to see him there.
And I told myself that was when I was going to decide if he'll go or stay.
Apparently, he's still on the verge of leaving.
In actual fact, he has left long ago.

I looked through my phone messages.
There are like 1000+++ of them present.
I looked through some of them, and realised how they brought back the feeling.
That feeling, so familiar and warm, yet fleeting.
I miss that feeling.
I guess that was the feeling I was trying to find on him.
I don't know if that feeling is still present,
but I'm assured that I'm still trapped within that circle.
Cause when I walked right near him that day,
I experienced that feeling again.

The comeback of the feeling only led to more confusion.
Nevertheless, rest assured, I'm not as reliant on him anymore.
I can do without him.
Just you see.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Apparently I had an exciting week.
Yesterday was a sunday and I slacked at home watching tv.
Then we went sakae sushi for dinner.
Since my aunt bought a new car, I though I could put it to good use.
Hence, I suggested going East Coast Park.
It was rejected at first, but I insisted and ya we went.
So, me and my brother and my two aunts went ECP first.
My parents went later.
It's like so hard to convince that two to go.

The thing is the elders keep asking me why I wanted to go.
I just gave the excuse of admiring the sea.
I just got this indescribable urge to go there.

We went to the part with the food centre.
Apparently my parents knew how to waterski.
It was completely ironical when people were wow'ing,
and they went same move again.
My mother said she would drive the boat, while my father would waterski behind.
Of course I believe they could.
I could rmb our speedboat, sold already.
The thrill of being on the boat was wowwwwww.
Yet, I still don't know how to swim.
Maybe perhaps the coconut they brought me made me reliant on it.

I recalled a whole load of memories.
That made me realise how wonderful life is.
Gazing at the sea that knows no boundaries, I feel small.
Nevertheless, I feel that this is what's called life.
Mugging with my comrades aint life eh.

I think I have lost myself through the course of studying,
as well as pursuing what I think is lovely and stupid.
I can feel myself reverting back to when I was young.
That hyper little kid outdoors, and that introverted child indoors.
Studying has completely transformed myself to being introverted.
But I think I'm turning back to my old self again.
I have some much energy to squander, that I can't even afford to sit down and mug anymore.

Anyway, today I went out alone.
HAHA.
My mother was telling me not to go out, then I replied, I am.
I went to the national library, but I couldn't grasp the feel of camping there.
Nor could I find a place.
It was too quiet.
AHA, then I camped at Macdonalds.
Of course I did some homework.
Then I went expo for fun, since it was still early.
Expo is still filled with people, and I tried to control cursing the people there.
It met halfway though.
And I took 3 home.
It was damn packed, but I got a seat so it didn't really matter to me.

I just enjoy long journeys on buses.
I simply adore them.
What I really want in life is so different from others.
But that's what makes me special.
I think I'm too special.
LOL.

I visited the spectacles shop tonight.
And I told my mother that I didn't want any new specs.
Apparently I was looking at the black specs.
I like my old black specs.
Just like I like the situation I'm in now.
When I thought I really wanted one, I could just settle with what I had.
Same goes for you.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Yesterday night, we went TJCO's concert.
Rather boring actually.
I wore really smart, smartwear.
It's more to the smart word.
That's made that kid and elderly say L.

Due to time contraints, we were running to the Conference hall,
which is not at all pleasant.
That shoe was biting me, and kept dropping off.
I felt like I was limping with half my life.

So, again we went for supper, the same old three again.
We missed bedok station and had to take another train back.
We ate at the market near bedok interchange.
Ya, then I went home alone.
Thanks for the offer of driving me home though. (:

I still had to buy a double cheese for my brother,
which is a bother.
The queue was pretty long,
and I didn't know there were still so many people out.

Apparently, I took one of the last train services. HAHA.
Then I waited for 358 to come.
I think I saw baoyi's junior.
He was looking at me with utter shock on the bus.

I reached home at 12 plus.
HAHA.

Anyway, I did run on TJ's track.
Seriously. I got by and winnie as witness.
And those few people who saw us running.
It was baoyi that stopped me from running further.
Otherwise, my bliss would change to breathlessness.

I'm very sister one.
Geraldine, think I very 'jason' right?
Okay, next time I don't lend you cash anymore.
HAHA.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Mardi gras at TJ was fun.
Although I grew bored with everything quickly, I had fun.
I never knew you all still rmb about me and him.
HAHA.
Seriously, I couldn't sense a heart that beat faster.
I don't know if I'm too shocked or I gave up.

The haunted house was where we spent all our $2 at.
I thought I would be scared out of my guts.
Apparently, I'm like the bravest.
Because I convinced myself that the haunted house wouldn't look as real.
I was pushed to the front and I was very friendly to the people inside.
I greeted most of them though.
HAHA.
When we were crawling under the table, which I felt it was rather stupid,
Someone grabbed my leg, and I went HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I said excuse me to the person who wanted to scare me.
His mask dropped anyway.
The only time I screamed was at the end,
because the person who pushed me touched my butt.

The fire-eating act was not very convincing though.
But the thrill of being at the rock band is definitely great.
Your screams seem to be completely muted.
Apparently, I did something out of the world.
I saw the running track and wanted to run.
So I made baoyi and winnie run with me.
It was blissful. I don't know why.
HAHA.
But we got a few cheers.
HAHA.

It was only ten and everyone expressed their views on wanting to leave.
Thinking that I was the only one who didn't wanna leave,
I felt a little pangseh'ed and sad.
I wanted to play longer and spend the night out.
But, there's theresa and winnie who wanted to stay.
So ML, BY and amanda left for home.
While us threesome came out of TJ and back in again.
We loitered around, knowing that it wasn't our school.
Then sat near the field and road, chatted and ate.

The peace that night gave out was very refreshing.
Staying out late at night is forbidden most of time,
so why not let's stay out longer?
The thing is we are girls, and we can never stay out as long as guys can.
Girls are vulnerable, that's why.

I really enjoyed myself today.
Not because of him entirely, but because I finally can see the path ahead of me.
I'm certain I'm going TJ.
But I still need more time to think about him.

Let's spend a night out.
HAHA.
I wanna drink.
=D
But I don't think this'll ever happen.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

I'm broke.
HAHA.
Seriously.
Although I can just sweep out $50 at one go,
that's my only movable assets left.
I'm very sister one, okay?

Anyway, I'm going to write a chinese composition on life.
I'm damn excited.
HAHA.
Because I always wanted to give myself a definition of life.

I'm a little short circuited lately.
I'm doing some stuff that I don't do.
I feel so blissful with the non-mugging life.
I'll definitely hate to return back to that sickening life.
A hundred ewws.

I found out that I'm talking to myself even more often now.
I wanna shit. Eh go toilet shit.
Wahlao coming out le lah.
Wait wait, where's my textbook?
I do that so often that I think I'm a little abnormal.
Bus 12 come already, run leh.
Still early what, run alr will sweat.
Then don't run lor.
Wait for next bus lah.

Talking to yourself can be pretty fun though.
Haha.
You are broke, stop spending money now.
Nah, I can still take from mummy.
You bo paiseh arh? Only know how to ask for cash.
But I wanna buy that curry puff.
Be a good girl and go home now.

It does help me control myself.

I feel like piercing earholes now.
No, you can't. Haven't ask for permission yet.
Mummy don't mind what. She encouraged you.
But what if I pierce then all my knowledge flow out from that two holes?
There's no scientific proof yet stupid.
But I cannot pangseh serene and ruishan, anyway I want a doctor.
Don't do it today lah.
After 'O' levels okay?
Okay. zzz.

Oh well.
I'm nuts.
HAHA.

I think this part would really tell you how much your parents care about you.
You get first eh, results good eh.
I wonder what's mummy's reaction.
None? Maybe a damn small smile perhaps.
Then she'll sign on the last day of holiday. Haha.
I'm so insignificant.
I doubt she even knows this kind of results is wonderful.
Hello? It's so hard to get can?
I don't even feel like telling her that I got first.
Apparently, she still don't know.
Maybe they do know, and are proud of you, can show off eh.
Hah. Fuck.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

We got back our draft overall results.
I won't deny that I'm pretty sure I'll get first.
It's just my feeling.
It came true.
I know a lot of people want to kill me,
don't worry, I won't mind.
Like real (:
I don't mind the intention, but I mind the action.

In the midst, the pressure exerted on my punny little self has just gone way out of control.
Do you want to stand in my perspective?
Although everyone's expectations are different, it is true that everyone's blood pressure has escalated and our hearts are thumping so wildly.
Even for those who say they didn't care, they do.
Everyone's experiencing the same type of mood.
Frankly speaking, it's only adrenaline.

You may think you understand me,
but seriously, can you tell me what I'm thinking of right now?
Do you get my heart's most dearest desire?
I'm not what you think.
As we grow, we change, and I've changed a significant bit.
In terms of our IQ and EQ, we have improved in them.
Think carefully, have you improved since sec one?
You have, definitely.
Can you manage your relations well?
It's all part of life, be it family, friends, society.
Even if your relations are in this big mess, we have learnt how to deal with them.
Setbacks are part of our learning journey, they can never be avoided.
Nevertheless, we have passed my hurdles and overcome challenges,
omg this sounds damn over haha,
To become what we are today.
Be proud of yourself.
So, don't compare.

Be contented with what you have.
We really should.
Don't just always look in front, turn back and give yourself a pat on the back.
You are very lucky.
Count your blessings.
I know everyone would think of Mr Chua. HAHA.
But do.
Look at the natural disasters today.
Aint you very lucky to be still breathing now?
Let's really think carefully over what's the true meaning of life.

Stop procrastinating and getting into conflicts over some minor issues.
It doesn't help and can only aggravate the situation.
Sitting on the fence is a taboo in a group.
Taking sides would be a better choice, but it harms harmony though.
Backing out is possibly the worst kind of choice made.
It causes the whole situation to freeze and completely worsens the entire issue.
It's escaping.
In theory, it's supposed to reduce the conflict,
instead it has led to greater tension.
This is what I think lah, you can think otherwise.

I don't like changes.
I like everything to be the same.
So I'm a boring person.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
I know I don't like changes.
I like my life to be systematically organised
and everything the usual cycle.
I can accept lalapalooza, but I would definitely prefer the old ones.
Anyway, lalapalooza means something unusual or outstanding.
I learnt it from a book =D
I like the hustle and bustle, and I like peace alone too.
I can just integrate myself into a group naturally,
but talk to myself when I'm alone.
Don't you do that?
I don't like changes.
And you can't expect me to change to suit others interest.
Sometimes I'm indecisive, because my real desire has been poking really hard on me,
to make the decision that I really want.
Nevertheless, I'm adamant about me changing to suit others.
Mission impossible.
You can criticise all you want, I care, but I won't change.

I know I'm different here to the real me.
Because you haven't truely understood me yet.
It's fine, my train of thoughts is intelligible.
You never know when I'm wearing a mask.
Always, Sometimes, Rarely, Never perhaps.
Even I don't know.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Bio SPA was postponed.
It was a relief for me, since I didn't had enough preparation.
I mean the feeling kind of preparation.
Ya.
I wouldn't want to screw that.

Finally we got back our bio paper.
I was the only one who got an A1 for bio.
Apparently, I get the feeling everyone just wants to kill me,
especially my great partner, geraldine.
HAHA.
But it's only a close A1 of 75.
I looked through the paper and found out that my results contained elements of luck.

So, I'm really contented now.
I got 7 for L1R5.
WOOHOO~
Judging from the effort I put in, and the results obtained,
I really need to work harder than this.
Certainly.
I'm very sure now everybody who reads this,
would have the feeling to kill me right this moment.
I'm fine with it.
=D

Monday, May 19, 2008

I guess I'm forcing myself to mug.
I can't really concentrate though.
Thinking of tml's HCL lessons, makes me sick.
I don't feel like doing the mock paper eh.
Fuck.

Anyway, mugging beats doing housework.
Studying is the best excuse I can give my mother to escape housework.
How I dread doing housework. Urgh.
I don't like stay-home weekends or holidays.
I just can't display the enthusiasm towards cleaning my room.

I gonna compile a list of what I wanna do after 'O' levels.
WOOHOO. AHA.
1. Ear piercing on 13th november.
2. Ice skating somewhere.
3. Buy stuff for prom with everyone.
4. Burn my books. No lah, throw them aside.
5. Immense myself in extreme joy and not sleep till wee hours.
6. Go out. Perhaps Singapore's attractions; Zoo, Birdpark, Sentosa, East Coast Park, Flyer, Arcades, Pool, Bowling, Anywhere.
7. Get my pa to buy me a laptop and give me money to splurge. HAHA.
8. Grab a ball and play basketball to conquer my fear of balls and grow taller.
9. Watch TV till it explodes, then we can buy a plasma.
10. Wait for the results to be announced. (:

My list looks short.
It sounds like a fantasy.
Because I summarised everything, it looks pathetically short.
Yet, fulfilling.
However, I don't feel in the least motivated at all.
HAHA.
Still feel like playing.
It's hard to get into the mugging mode okay?

Still waiting for that disgusting piece of bio paper.
Is bio SPA tml?
Yea.
I forgot about it.
Stupid.
So, there's a need to study lah.
Sian.
But got feel to mug le,
because I screwed the last SPA assessment.

Some editing to make to my previous posts.
Miki is not going prom, can baoyi?
On my blogskin, it's a couple, not 2 girls, winnie.

My goldfishes swim invertedly.
This sight would worry anyone,
but apparently they enjoy it.
They are still living, I guess.

Still missing you, if fate decrees we meet again,
I have no reason to turn you away.
I'm so random.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Yesterday was fun.
I went out alone to tmall and then bugis.
Just don't wanna stay at home and decompose.
I just walked all around bugis, national library and popular.
Agreed to meet my mother at bugis, then we went OG.
I was trying to be tolerant, because I didn't really like that place.
But it turned out to be quite okay.
She's such a spendthrift.

Joined my pa and brother at sim lim square.
We were supposed to be looking at laptops,
but the main lead who wanted to purchase, my aunt, couldn't make it.
So the plan was aborted.
HAHA.

Went home pretty early, and since I slept during the car ride,
I suggested going E!hub with my brother.
Knowing that there'll be crowds, I just wanted to hang out outside.
My brother took me on his bike, and we went E!hub.
We visited the arcade and could only look at other people play bowling.
Because I didn't bring any cash and we were broke.
It was rather fun at the arcade with my brother.
It was around 9pm alr though.
We took a spin on his bike around the park before we headed home.
HAHA.
It was fun, except for that fact that he keeps jerking his bike.
Apparently, my butt hurts.
Won't his cork be in the least affected?

Reached home, and we went downstairs to eat supper.
A very bloated one though.

I watched TV until 1am before I headed for bed.
I kinda slept for the sake of sleeping.
lol.

And it's sunday~
We went tomb-sweeping.
So, I woke up before 8am.
I was feeling energetic, which is totally the wrong state.
We went to the nearby coffeeshop to have our breakfast,
before heading for Choa Chu Kang cemetery.
Tombing-sweeping is pretty fun.
The distance of my paternal grandparent's graves are less than 100m from each others.
That's damn cool, because their death years differ by 5 years.
Saw my name on both tombs.
HAHA.

Then we went ikea.
And ate there and my brother's really psycho.
We wanted to change our mind about the lamp shade.
But my mother refused to admit that it was a change of mind.
She insisted on change of size.

Home finally.
Hope everyone can do this.
Put a (R) in front at your msn nick.
It's a rainbow.
Then msn will give $0.20 with each rainbow to the chengdu victims.
This information is brought to you by winnie and wenyi, my primary school friend.
YAY.
I put le, ya, so put it now?
=D

Friday, May 16, 2008

Feeling bored again.
Somehow, I just lack the activation energy to start the mugball rolling.
Nevertheless, I did my homework.
The thing is I planned to go out tml, to just buy some books and clothes maybe.

I gave out $105 dollars today.
$30 to prom, $50 to the disasters from my mother,
$25 lent to winnie who forgot to bring her money for prom.
I only had around $10 left to speak of.
I'm like so broke.

I only mentioned to my mother about the existance of prom in the morning.
She asked what's prom.
I said it was a party.
That's all.
Oh well, I paid the money.
HAHA.

Today's bio lesson didn't discourage me from having 3 kids still.
I know there's people who wanna know.
I believe natural birth is what humans should stick too.
The joy and bliss from seeing your baby arrive onto this world, is simply enough to take away all the pain the mothers had suffered.
Giving birth is a very touching process to me.

Today we stayed back to take TG photos.
It was fun, because I like to take photos.
The reason for this change is that posing would make photos more lively.
It's definitely better than hiding somewhere.
Actually, I don't deny that I enjoy taking photos,
ever since I got addicted to seeing myself in photos.
Except for those that ML takes, freaking lah.

Still unsure of my MYE results.
I hope it's still within what I expect.
Oh well.

Can't bring myself to stare and mug.
Think I'd better play this week.
Next week would be the time where I'll pick up my mugging comrades once more.
=D

Thursday, May 15, 2008

I went against what I said earlier on.
I'm going to go PROM.
HAHA.
Haven't mentioned this to my mother yet.
HAHA. Later lah.
I can't back out now, because I made a pact with my little finger with Denise.
We two are going. =D
And we point at ourselves.
It's like a very sudden decision made during recess today.

Suddenly during recess, I had no idea why I felt like going PROM.
Perhaps it is due to seeing peiwen they all maybe going.
I found a friend, with the same dilemma, theresa.
It sparked off my interest to go PROM.
But I can still sense the undecisiveness among us.
And Denise came along.

Me: If I go prom, will you go?
Denise: Really? Ya. But don't back out again.
So, we made a pact with our little fingers, NEVER to back out.
No matter what, there'll still be the two of us.
And started announcing to the whole world.

I started having a little regrets making that pact.
But I won't break that pact lah.
My original stand was that I don't mind going.
Until ML broach the subject on the attire and out of place situation,
did I realise the loopholes of the event.
I was rather discouraged and that convinced me not to go.

Being fickle-minded, I spoiled my reputation and trust totally lah.
That's what I feel.
I said I would go, but changed my mind, but still go.
Conscious mind VS heart
My heart wins and yeeling's going prom.
HAHA.

Who's going prom?
Me, Denise, Theresa, Christine, Peiwen, Miki, Elaine, Yiting, Yanwei.
Winnie, I don't know.
I'll never forget, Amanda too =D
Sorry. I just can't help but shoot you unknowingly all the time.

YAY!
Wax and wane theory worked wonders.
My english may not get a C5 after all.
WOOHOO~
Although the compre proved to be an atomic bomb,
that made me get a C5/6 grade,
my composition would pull me up.
YAY.
I was very surprised that I got 24/30 for compo.
I was guessing that the highest mark was 25, but it's 24.
Suddenly I heard my name when I was talking to geraldine.
Because I thought it was peiwen or ruishan or serene or whoever,
it didn't really matter much to me.
And I got highest.
I wow'ed to myself.
Moreover, I found a YAY written on my question paper after I completed the exam.
YAY that was used to mark the end of english paper one, ended up a cheer for my success.
Simply ironical.
Obviously, this would be considered my most valuable takeaway from this MYE.
Because I never got more that 19 for my compo ever since sec one.
I wrote the exposition, to discuss about whether if children should send their old and sickly parents to the nursing home.
I agree that the elderly should be sent there.
I thought I seemed coldhearted, but I think that's not wrong.
I never would do that, but if my parents really require that medical attention that I can't give,
I guess it's only right to send them there for the best care services.
Anyway, I felt it was pretty boring to read my script.
Oh well.
It was the best wax. =D

Calculated my tentative L1R5,
it's either 7 or 8.
Because Bio is still unknown.
I don't know why, I still think the L1R5 looks a lot.
When it's literally a wonderful grade.
Perhaps 3 looks nicer to me.
HAHA.
=D

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I'm going to start my mugging plans tml.
WOOHOO.
To kick a headstart, I'll begin intensive mugging with geogy~
Apparently, geogy failed me and only managed to clinch a close A2.
I'm very dejected, of course.
But looking at the question, I completely didn't study before,
that cloud cover question, I got full 6 marks.
It totally kills all the sorrow in me. :D

Guess the airport wasn't a very good place for mugging,
vivocity is better.
HAHA.
Will explore more places for studying.
So, I intend to begin with physical geog. TML.
Venue: home (:

I still hope to get 7 for L1R5.
So, since geogy got an A2,
english was like some atomic bomb that killed the entire level,
I predict I'll get a C5.
But my HCL got A2 wor (:
So, just one last subject, biology get A1, then can le. :D
7 points, what I always wanted :D

Wax and wane totally describes the trend of my results.
The weaker ones improved.
The better ones dropped.
This totally disturbs me, because the overall is deproving.

Let's talk about something that happened today.
I gathered money to buy 5 tickets for the TJC Mardi-gras.
I went to the booth at the canteen to buy for everyone,
whilst everyone went to buy food.
'5~' And I went twinkling stars with my hand.
The people were damn surprised that I wanted 5 tickets.
'Really? 5? OMG!'
From their smiles, I felt pretty amused, but felt very contented buying the tickets.
Because it's really fufilling that your actions can actually make others happy.
Although none of them are my seniors, but I guess they are my school seniors.
Not many people brought tickets from them, the booth looks isolated.
With people walking past, without sparing any attention, it really sucks.
For people who sells stuff before, this feeling is unbearingly lonely.
Suddenly one turns up to buy, it's like WOW~
The WOW feeling is heavenly and blissful. :D

Er, the prom booth looks isolated too.
HAHA.
I guess our batch is not very enthu about such events.
But Kelly would make a very wonderful host.

Wanna see the replay of Leechuang's troubles of prom? :D
Me: LeeChuang, you going prom?
LC: Ya.
Me: Totally did'nt expect her to go.
Later in the day...
LC: you all, ALL not going prom arh?
Me: Ya.
LC: Why?
Me: Because you have to wear something called a DRESS.
And I start drawing a dress on myself.
LC: not need to wear dress mah.
Shunzi: it's a formal event, no dress then cannot enter kay? HAHA.
LC: Really MEH?
Me: Yes. HAHA. Unless you want to wear tuxedo. CAN~, you know? (:
And I drew a tie on myself.
Leechuang seemed completely lost.
Me: Leechuang, then why you go?
LC: Because they got go mah.
Me: Shunzi, Yanting they all lah.
Shunzi: No, I never go prom, because go back china le.
Me: ORH. Oh ya, go there will feel out of place. OUT OF PLACE.
She was horribly pissed off by that sentence.
LC: At most don't go lor, no lah.
Me: OUT OF PLACE~
And I stood outside, waiting for serene.
I opened and held the door,
Leechuang started pointing her middle finger upwards at me.
Then I felt it was okay to retaliate back.
I pointed my middle finger upwards back at her.
Then we started pointing all our fingers at each other.
It's damn lame.
It ended when Leechuang mouthed FUCK YOU at me.
I could not bear to retaliate back this one, because I really can't bear to.
HAHA.
Who wants to fuck her?

Let's make a bet.
Will chuangchuang go PROM?
I bet NO.

I treasure our friendship.
I hope this harmony and bond would never sour.
It's great having you guys.
:)
yea baby.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

HAPPY BDAY BEECHENG~
WOOHOO~
CHENGCHENG! :D
Haha.

Second round of results is out.
YAY.
Everything seems to be pretty fine,
except for geogy though.
Er..really hope to get A1 for geogy.
Oh ya, I want my english, to prove if my predictions are true.

It's true I didn't put in 100% hardwork this time,
so the results I aim for cannot be too high either.
Overall I'm satisfied.
There's still geogy though. Oh well.

Still going to let myself stay in a pile of shit,
playing games and watching TV.
HAHA.

Decided the first subject I wanna work on is
GEOGY~
WOOHOO~
:D

Monday, May 12, 2008

It's absolutely hard, disgusting and exhausting to get everyone to agree on a single issue.
Some have limitations, others have hesitations.
Some want detailed information, whilst some refuse to give me an answer.
It's really taxing.
It's understandable though, because one can't even be certain about their own stand.

All of a sudden, there's like this whole load of events, luring me to attend them.
Tapestry, TJCO concert, TJ carnival, PROM, whatever.
Decided not to go prom, cause wearing a dress, and feeling out of place from the whole event, discourages my conscious mind.
But the whole thing about eating at some high-class hotel whets my appetite, and is causing my heart to inch atrociously.
Conscious mind VS heart
Obviously conscious mind wins.
After much struggle though.
HAHA.
Eh hello, $60 a lot eh. :D
Oh well.
The rest is affordable.
HAHA.

Anyway, first round of results is out.
Wax and wane.
The weaker subjects I used to have improved tremendously.
The better subjects I used to have deproved slightly.
Overall, I'm demoralised. ):
However! I strongly believe that if I get too high,
I'll lose the determination to fight and improve!
So, don't be discouraged!
WOOHOO~

But I find this position very suffocating.
I've a feeling I'm going to get down, which is good.
I abhor the presence of an unknowing pressure pressing against me.
Perhaps the drop aint a bad thing afterall.

I really need the support.
Don't step on my toes again, because the pressure building up again.
Firstly, I'm not some terrorist, HEA.
Secondly, I'm not suffering from some kidney problem, HEA.
Lastly, I'm not very good at tolerating crititism, HEA.
I'm still learning how to accept the world's survival theory.

I just need the particular someone, again.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mother's day~
WOOHOO.
I bought a gift for my mother for the maybe first time.
My mother doesn't really believe it though.
Still incomplete, cause the paint hasn't dried yet.
I went ikea alone yesterday and bought a cactus and a black mug worth $0.75.
I'm so pissed off by the cashier.
Oh well.
That's my mother's day gift. HAHA.
Celebrated it yesterday, but I think the essence of the entire gathering was just to eat.

Now I'm like damn bored.
I'm bored.
Urgh ><
I have no idea what I wanna do.
Watch TV.
Oh ya, icy tower.

Friday, May 9, 2008

I'm really possessive.
haha.

The NE quiz was pretty fun.
It's like a computer game.
I got expert builder eh, 505000 points or whatever.
Thought it was average, but I turned out to be quite good.
Muhahahaha.

Went bugis after that.
Er, only me ml by amanda went.
We accomplished what we wanted to do real fast.
I don't really like shopping though.
And we saw rs and denise there!
We got really hyper after seeing them.
Frankly speaking, I still don't like that bugis street one bit.
Whenever I'm there, I'm bound to be fucked-up.
Anyway, I found out something good about skinny people, like BY,
she can really go through the crowd at lightning speed.
Because she's so skinny that she can pass through the spaces.
While people, not so skinny, like me, just go around knocking into people lor.

ML always think I'm some suspicious article.
It's not funny CHEN.
Amanda bought her mother's day present too,
which made me think of mine.
I guess I think giving presents for mother's day is a waste.
I've not done a card or given anything to my mother,
maybe after upper primary?
That was the time my mother stopped buying me presents too.
Because she'll buy anything I want anytime.
Why? Because I'm a goody goody clever clever little girl.
Maybe I'll sms her this year.
Sounds stupid and saddening.
Oh well, happy mother's day.

Anyway the last time my mother wished me good luck for exams
was maybe primary 2.
OMG. HAHA.
But I can confirm she didn't wish me good luck for PSLE or secondary school.
Always looking forward to her wishing me that,
but she doesn't.
No matter how much I hint her, she never does that.
She only says: 'guo ma lu yao xiao xin.'
'ORH' ):

OH WELL, I love my mother.
I love you mummy.
:D

Oh ya, MA I'm going to sms you too. :D
Denise must rmb to sms me also.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY~ (:

Thursday, May 8, 2008

It has finally reached the end of the mid-year examinations.
WOOHOO.
But I don't have the relieved feeling.
Guess I would only have it after the 'O' levels.
HAHA.
Nevertheless, this is a hurdle cleared.
Now I'm really anxious in getting back my papers,
and start blaming myself for not studying hard enough.
Quite clear that I went out numerous times during the exam period,
I really wonder if it'll reflect in my results.
WAKAKA.

Today, our last exam was over.
WOOHOO~
Felt a sudden surge of freedom.
I was free from my books for this period, at least.
I can finally go out, not to study, but to play.
PLAY~WOOHOO~
Hopes kinda dashed when I heard everyone wanted to go back to sleep.
I badly wanted to go out.
HAHA.

But I tested a few people who didn't say anything about sleeping.
Hopes were lighted again.
When we were crossing the road, I suddenly asked.
'WHO WANNA GO OUT? EAST COAST PARK?'
And I raised my hand high up in the middle of the road.
I saw two hands, felt really happy.
And after little planning, there were 6 people for this outing.
me, RS, BY, manda, winnie, serene.

But some people wanted to rest, even sleep, so we met at 2pm.
Everyone went home.
It rained at noon.
Got rather dampened, because I was afraid less people would turn up.
Or if it continued, it won't be such a wonderful outing after all.
Rain stopped.
HOORAY~

I thought I was going to be late, because I couldn't find the shirt I wanted to wear.
To my horror, I saw amanda at the other side of the busstop,
trying to get a straight bus from pasir ris to tampines.
Decided to call her, and say she's going to be so late.
And I missed one bus, to wait for her to cross the road.
We are going to be late, amanda, take the MRT.

To our surprise, we saw RS coming down the escalator.
Walked to tampines interchange, and some newly-opened bubbletea shop,
that seems terribly out of place, and we 3 were the first ones to arrive.
BUT Baoyi came earlier, too early in fact, went shopping at popular.
BY came later.
Couldn't help but call serene.
'I'm still at the busstop.'
'ORH~where?'
'My busstop'
Got a little agitated, but it's alright. PATIENCE.
20 minutes late is a little unpardonable though.

Took 31 to East Coast Park.
No one brought cards.
HAHA.
I rmb me, winnie, serene playing cards, taiti, during the bus journey.
So I sat with winnie and we chatted.
Oh ya, I didn't mean to forget our that twirling fingers action.
SIAN.
We reached.
Thanks to serene and RS, we found our way easily.
During the entire walking journey, I was trying to make my sling bag, into a backpack.
I succeeded, but they say I act cute. Wahlao.

Reached ECP.
Nothing like before.
We just went to the beach, and I behaved like a kid.
Always say I look old, but I think my thoughts are closest to a child's one though.
And I enjoyed playing with the water and sand. :D
We were jumping up to take photos, because we never really tried this before.
Obviously, there was discoordination between the models and photographer.
But the pictures were wonderful.
Even those NG ones.

Got really tired and hungry from the jumping.
So we walked to Macdonalds.
Unfortunately, we saw a couple trying to have sexual intercourse in the sea.
I felt really disturbed, but since it's a park, no doubt there'll be couples around here.
I ate a double cheese and drank medium coke.
Feeling really full and contented, we went to search for OUR breakwater.
And it was the most fun there, seriously.

I was throwing ice into the sea and making wishes.
Made many small little wishes. (:
We posed for pictures.
Superman, ultraman, catwoman, spiderman,
James bond, ugly face, monkey face, flower, whatever.
Damn cool.
I like the LOVE.
Suddenly reminded of HI-5. OMG.
I and amanda started singing the song.
L-O-V-E, I love you and you love me!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
But I like the sunshine(shan) song, although I cannot rmb the lyrics.

We wanted to accomplish our last task of building sandcastles.
I built two tall towers from my medium-sized coke drink.
Plus one tortoise, one heart, breasts.
WAKAKA.
Amanda gave me the idea.
The end-product was really pretty.
Because this is a joint effort from all of us~
WOOHOO~

Time to go home.
Pretty late.
Walked to the busstop.
Took 196 to marine parade.
From there, took 31 back.
Alight at Tanah Merah busstop to switch to 12 to take back home.
I took the MRT with RS though.
We needed to go Pasir Ris Interchange.
Reached home at 8.30pm.

My ankles crack when I twist it.
Muscles have lactic acid in them, oxygen debt not repaid yet.
We were doing physical geog about coasts at the beach.
'This is where there is deposition, due to...'
Step into the water, 'EH, destructive waves eh!'
Amanda got fed-up, she's the only one who doesn't take geog.

But I think I'll just start my mugging plans this saturday.
Fast, but it'll just be VERY RELAXED mugging plans.
Maybe just grab some book to read to improve my language.

OH YEA, there's a TG blog, and I'm second to blog.
WOOHOO~
www.tg2r606.blogspot.com
If I didn't rmb wrongly.
BYE.

I can finally play my games at ease.
And find some time to think about some matters
that have been dragging for way too long.
:D

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

When I'm distracted, I'll always remind myself with this word.
STUDY.
Obviously it only works when time's running short.
I kind of slacked today.
hahahahahahahaha.
Maybe because I think I won't die yet.
At least I can squeeze some crap out if possible.

Now is my optimum period for mugging.
WOOHOO.
Going to muggy~

I went vivocity today.
hahahahahahahahahahawakakakakaka.
I'm so bad :D

Monday, May 5, 2008

Feeling a little disappointed here.
I guess what's on everyone's mind now, is not on mine.
Apparently, I don't feel like mugging.

Too bad. CANNOT.
I feel so stupid.
I don't know.
But, I'm sure I'll be motivated enough tml.
At least I did some biology today.
wakakakakaka.
Still cannot find the essence of what unit 4.1 history is talking about.
BAH.

Suddenly remembered what mr chee said.
Look down in desperation, look up for inspiration, but never look sideways for solutions.
I was telling my brother that.
HAHA.

I didn't know mouth ulcers could have blood oozing out upon squeezing.
After nurturing it to maturity, it bleeds when I brush my teeth.
I started squeezing it, and blood came out.
Started tasting my own blood, it really has the metallic taste.
Blood got iron mah.
Maybe I'm too obsessed with biology.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

You know what.
One fine day, I may just kill someone.
Nah.
This world is too complicated.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Feeling bored again.
Been mugging a lot lately though.
I slept at 2am yesterday, cause I drank coffeeeeeee.
Wonder why I respond to caffeine again.

Mugged at changi airport with serene yesterday.
Thanks :D
But it beats studying at home.
ewwwww and hot.

After spending 1 hour plus walking around, we finally settled down at mac,
where I drank coffeeeee.
Then we decided to go Fish and Co, since I've never been there before.
Quite excited, but got worried about the prices,
because I wasn't feeling very rich.
So we ate Swensens. YAY.

Went to the viewing mall and decided to stay there for good.
We hid at one corner, fearing that it would affect the atmosphere.
After all, people go there to admire those planes, not see many groups of people mugging.

Think next time, I'd better stick with BurgerKing. YA.
I still like that place.
Oh well.
Need to go muggy~

Friday, May 2, 2008

I'm so evil.
Wakakakakakakamuhahahahahaha.
I'm like so dead.
The moment I went my auntie's house, I fell asleep on their sofa.
HAHAHA.
So I decided to get out of the house.
My first destination was tampines library, turns out to be full house.
Wanted to go ikea's cafe to study, but the queue was horrible.
This would most likely mean even more people at ikea.
I gave up and suddenly felt like going terminal 3.
And I took the mrt there.
HAHAHA.
It's pretty empty there.
That's why I like it.
There's like ample space for me to walk.
Wakakakakakamuhahahaha~
Anyway, I saw chankai and his 4R1 friends.
I pretended to be blind, since the entire pavement was so spacious.

But the entire space feeling makes me really relaxed.
YEA.
I took the sky-train for fun, didn't look like what it did 6 years ago perhaps.
T3 is rather high-class, so I returned back to T2 BK.
Time was already 1445.
I thought I couldn't even study finish one chapter.
But I finished 2 themes. YAY!

I really like the atmosphere there.
Perhaps I'm going to go there to study on long days.
At least I know the crowd is limited and I'm not alone.
Cause there are other people studying there too.
It's not too quiet and not too noisy.
Just nice.
I really love it.

Going again tml.
But got serene as partner.
WAKAKA.
I'm going to explore new places of mugging.
YAY.

At least I know I won't fall asleep on some sofa again.
WakakakakakakaMuhahahahahahahaha.