Friday, January 30, 2009

I havent been blogging recently, because I was hooked on to the diner dash game on the psp. Still addicted, nothing I can do about it. Entertaining it may be, but it certainly does damage to the eyes and fingers. Feeling pretty sick everytime I stop though. Anyway, I cant help it.




Yesterday I went for a run at my nearby park. It was an unexpected event though. I was awoken when my brother was counting money of some sort in the room, and I couldn't get back to sleep. Thus I decided on having a run. My mother was kind of shocked too.




Running is good, I guess. For at least it can help remove some toxins, especially for someone who has been rotting away at home for so long. It's time to exercise! Haha.




Perhaps everyone can use some exercise now. Yea now.




Because healthy people are happy people.




Why end it?

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

It looks like I'm still rotting at this moment. Hah. I spend my days out, and it's mostly to kill time or to buy stuff. At the same time, it gives me more time to think about what I'm going to do later on in life.



There's a period where I thought my ambition was to become a psychiatrist. Then suddenly I decided that perhaps it's only on impulse. And it kind of clashes with the kind of life that I really hope to achieve. After all, what I wanna do is to have children. (:




But looking at how the world is becoming, I think there will be an increasing number of people seeking psychological treatment. Hah. Maybe being a psychiatrist aint too bad after all.




I just lack the drive to go research on how I'm going to be one. Anyway, the main motive is to be happy with the job and its monetary terms. :D




I'm still pondering over what I'm going to be in the future. Perhaps what I think I'll be won't be what I am going to be. Let's just choose the paths that we want to take, and not let yourself be trapped in one place.




Play while we still can.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I got my results back a few days ago. Hah. I did better than I expected. Way better. I thought I would do something crazy, like jump around. Haha. I didn't.




Until now, I'm still basking in my own world of happiness. I find this whole situation pretty unbelievable. I thought perhaps I don't deserve it, because it feels like I just scrape through the whole thing. But as I come to think of it, everyone said that I mugged a lot, and I think I did too.




I've got 8 pure distinctions out of 9 subjects, if you forgot. Haha. My english got a B3. My Higher Chinese got an A1, and I thought perhaps I'm really lucky.




I've attained 6 points, with 4 bonus points. In short, 2 points.




I can barely believe it until now. I achieved something that I never even dreamed of.





Anyway, I'm going to TJ. Yea.





I LOVE RUISHAN! (:

Monday, January 12, 2009

Many people are about to start school again once more. It's pretty exciting to some, but a chore to others. But it doesnt take its tone on me. Something else is, for at least, slowly.




I seemed to forget about the fact that I'm going to get my results until I went online to talk to my mother who's in Japan now. People started asking me how I felt, and then I started feeling that way again.




Something in your body seems to be blazing up; the heat is spreading fast to the other areas too. The fiery blaze seems to be radiating out from the core of the body; perhaps it's from the palpitating heart that's about to hop out. It's pretty contradicting; how it's so hot yet the freezing shivers can be sent down the spine. Additionally, the heat is able to make your head expand too; to the point where the head is really heavy and burdened. Perhaps due to the expansion of the head, the eyes start to lose its function too; it starts to see images of the unforeseen future.





I wonder what my reaction would be.





I bet I'll lose control of myself. Hah.





Let's take it easy for now.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

We've went to the various poly open houses. My actual motive was to kill time. So I learnt something from the entire experience. I learnt how to reject people swiftly.





Presenter: Do you have any courses in mind?
Me: ( pauses to think )
Presenter: Then do you wanna know more about this ...... ?
Me: No.
Me: ( smiles ) Thank you.





I find that I kinda attract people from the engineering side, where I'm not interested in. They specially like to approach me on courses regarding aeroplanes. Do I look like I'm interested to build a plane of my own?





Anyway, I got everything sorted out.





Life still goes on aimlessly.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

I've been thinking a lot recently. About myself especially. I'm a good person, yet I'm bad at times. I expect myself to be a good person, never a bad one of course. Yet I want to do bad things and feel good about myself at the same time. Haha.




It's pretty complicated. But I think I got it all figured out. The fact that it will never be.




Perhaps life can only be interesting when we can balance both good and bad. Being too good will put one at a certain disadvantage, whereas being too bad will put one in immense guilt and remorse. On the other hand, being good makes you feel good naturally haha. And being bad makes one feel evil. Ahahaha. It gives you the kick and excitement. Hah.




Of course, being good most of the time would be best. (:




I found something really true about my personality today. I love harmony. Yea.




I want to do bad things yet feel good at the same time.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

I've been repeatedly encountering the following phrase; new year's resolution.




I guess I should come up with one too. Hah.




I wish I can become a better person. I hope the paths that I choose and the decisions I make can be beneficial; not only to me but to the people around me as well. Having no regrets, I hope I can make the (my) world a better place to live in. I'm not really hoping for much; just wanna keep what I've got; pursue my goals in the future; bring and spread love.




It sounds freaking bimbo man. Ahahahahaha.




There are just too many resolutions to be checked.




Just do what we deem fit.




Happy new year to you.




(:
HAPPY NEW YEAR!




Hah.




Actually it's getting pretty normal anyway. It's like nothing has happened. Ahahahahaha.





I drank some wine, and I see myself turn so red for the first time. Haha. My whole face seemed to resemble some cherry. Hah. Perhaps I gulp it down too readily.





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