I wanted to find someone to pour out my troubles to. Too bad, I just refused to used the mobile to do so. Actually, I've only got one trouble lah. Hah. Feeling a little blue now.




The television is spoilt. Noooooooooooooooo.




Thus I'm feeling freaking deprived now and a little fucked up. HAHA.




Oh ya, I decided not to work anymore. It's so stupid. They don't wanna hire me because I'm too young and I don't wish to work as cheap labour either. So let me just live off my parents for now. =D




Seriously, I just wanna crap with someone right now. HAHA.





I hope the television can revert back to its original state when I switch it on again.




Argh. Oh well.




I'll still be waiting.

It's over over over.





YAY!






To be frank, I don't really feel any sudden burst of freedom or anything. It was just normal. It's like there's still another paper tml, when there's not. SO WOOHOO. Feeling no sense of freedom at all, I think it's because I'm worried about the job recruitment stuff. Anyway, my heart's getting a little tired from the searching and applying for jobs aimlessly. I guess I'm not going to find a job after all. Perhaps I'll set up my own business or sth. HAHA.






It's getting late. HAHA.







My bday's coming.







Could you give me a surprise then?

Just wanna try mugging at a different place in a more relaxing manner. Seriously, it's pretty stressful to see the sec 4s and J2s study at the library together. It's like a mugging marathon, with no prize to offer though.




I always thought the reference room was awfully silent till I can't stand it at all. After it being my mugging den for so long, I actually kinda like the atmosphere there. Only that it's pretty restricting though. Nonetheless, telling me to go to the library to mug is like sending me back to my jail term and room again. Nah, no thanks.





So let's sip coffee and discuss our questions patiently in the comfortable cafe. Hah. It sounds freaking relaxing. Hope it'll be tml. A little sick of that cycle of events.





I feel like a small little canary flying freely in the dark greyish clouds about in the deep blue sky. I guess it's the feelings of most now. You are wandering freely in your own world already, yet the exams are still ongoing. Stupidly ironical. Doubt many can concentrate on MCQs now anyway. Oh well.





Tweet Tweet.

I've got this freaking headache now. I think it's because I ate too much heaty stuff. HAHA. Come to think of it, perhaps the real cause was because I watched too much tv and concentrated too much.




I think I need fresh air. Feeling breathless now. Oh dear.




I'm afraid I can mug no more, because I'm absolutely distracted now. Just want to hang around and not be burdened with the fact that I've to study.





Suddenly I think that my headache could have arisen from over-dosage of sleep hours all of a sudden. There was one night I slept real late, then I wanted to make up for it by sleeping more the next few days. Ahahahahahah. Looks like it doesn't really work. Anyway, it's past midnight already. Perhaps it's time for me to sleep.





Hope it disintegrates by tml morning. Dissipate into small atoms and into a blurred image, then start fading off from the core. Disappear into null. HAHA.





Just go away.

I feel deprived. Give me what I want. Ahahahahahahahah.





Actually, I've no freaking idea what I really wanna do after the exams. Being overwhelmed by the sudden burst of freedom would be rather difficult to handle, I guess. I don't even know where I want to go this saturday. I would not go to tampines library anymore. I don't wanna mug anymore. It's simply crazy how mugging has become such an integrated part of my life. Too bad, the MCQ papers are just like chains, preventing my flight, forcing me to study. Seriously, I hate to. Oh well.





Why is it so hard for me to ask him for that?

I've got this thinking. One day, I hope that a disease would simply just wipe out all of human kind. Reason being, there's just simply tooooooo many people on this world. Dear disease, just kill every single one, imcluding me. Wouldn't that be great?



Everyone has their own thinking about where we'll go after we die. In my view, I think we just cease to breathe and exist in this real world anymore. It's like being put to eternal deep sleep, never to be awoken again. Why bother to go to another world? Haha. Anyway, die means die. It still seems scary to me, because I've just too many things left undone.




Wouldn't it be great if death was no longer scary? Haha. Then I'll become the scary one. (:




Anyway, 'O' levels seem to be getting more and more normal. Today I sat down at my usual table, wondering why was the exam feeling so stagnant. I can't experience the anxiety, the fear, the nervousness, the joy, the adrenaline rush, the brain drain, the tension, the gush. Practically, I was a little lost in my own world. Detached perhaps. Oh well.




The instantaneous euphoria after each exam is always so transient. This is because I've yet to study for the next paper. I'm forever rushing and burning the night oil. Is this really my 'O' levels? Seriously, it feels more like common tests to me. My ability to underestimate the influence of this important exam seem to be rather amazing to me though.




Oh well. There's five more papers left. And only one requires memory work. HAH.




This is the only comfort I have till this point. Wish me luck. =D




Might as well give me your power. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I love white mama. HAHA. I removed the tagboard as well, since it was spoiling the aesthetic feeling. Haha. You can leave comments right at the bottom if you've got something to spill.




Whatever, I'm freaking happy now. Because history is now history. Hahahahahahahahahaha.




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