Upon sudden realization that I'm just frolicking my precious time away,
I should be embarking on my journey to set my train of thoughts right.

I'm utterly disappointed to announce that I'm unable to locate the exact date of commencement of toilet gang. Sorry.

The tone sounds a little awkward, of course.
It's standard english I'm trying to type in,
but i guess the weirdness would wear off soon enough.


All of a sudden, I feel an urge to start my revision of 'O' levels,
although the switch might have came a little late,
with approximately 2 to 3 months to mid-years,
4 to 5 months to prelims or end-years(if we have one)
6 to 7 months to 'O' levels.
But I know i can cover my topics well enough by then.
If an ill-prepared and distracted me, can perform great academic potential
why not a fully-prepared and focussed me?
I can do wonders.

I was not really aware that I could accomplish so much,
partly because I could only see what others had that was not in me.
Everything is selfish in this world.
Some people are just given more blessings than others.
I believe I'm one of them.
I believe everyone I know is, including you.
It's hard to remain a constant pure mind that's for the good of everyone;
family, friends, community, country, world.
Distractions there are bound to be,
just keep yourself on track.


Ruishan, you had better reduce your anime time, and don't read your book when you walk.
Beecheng, good girl, continue to work hard. WOOHOO. Fight more with RS, relieve stress (:
Denise, don't watch too much television(like me), but i know my great daughter will study.
Winnie, don't get too worried about family or friend matters, you are becoming a worry to me.
Theresa, don't sleep too much, and cut down on getting your fiery levels high. relax. :D
Christine, keep your BGR as your source of motivation, not source of sorrow. touch wood.
Serene, don't keep too much late nights, harms your health, there's nothing more wealthier than being in the pink of health.
Geraldine, be more focussed. I know you require more time to understand certain concepts. Be F-ed!
Meiling, don't feel guilty over everything. It's only going to add on as burdens. Remove them. Don't think so much, be careful your brain explodes.
Amanda, don't get distracted by your computer, but I know you'll chiong right to the last moment.
Baoyi, I know you like to procrastinate, maybe due to low glucose levels. Eat more. (:
Me, hooked to TV, distracted by thinking in depth, wasting time by waiting for the coooorrect feeling to appear to do certain tasks.


According to my views,
Beecheng is least distracted. yay.
No idea who's most distracted,
somehow i have a feeling I'm one of the candidates vying for this position.
Winnie, Ruishan also.
Let's untangle ourselves then.
Fat hope.
It's mission possible for everyone to distract their own distractions by mugging incessantly.
Okay, makes sense. GO.


By the way,
my mother forbid me to become a psychologist.
Feeling despondent, because she doesn't support my dreams.
She questioned what subjects I wanted to take in JC,
I said don't know, whilst my mind was still tumbling like a washing machine with the subjects thrown all over.
Balls printed with subject names roll out by balloting,
first ball; CHEMISTRY
I gazed at her, and answered chemistry.
'you better not become a psychologist,' she interrupted curtly.
The feeling I experienced was like a child having his newly-purchased lollipop snatched away by his parent.
It completely dashed my dreams.
Although this was just a temporary ambition I harbour,
it may be unsettled, but I don't need any cold water.
Trying to hide my aminosity, I needed a reason for this ridiculous situation.
'Why?'
'Because psychologists go crazy themselves.'
Aware that this is care and concern, it's every parent's instinct to protect their child,
I felt contradicted.
In the face of family love and the wilderness of dreaming, along with any teenager's rebellion,
I fell into my own trap, against my mother's will.
I feel lonely with someone not supporting my dreams.
Anyway, the road to becoming a psychologist is not simple,
it requires a whole load of qualifications and experience.
For a mother-to-be, I don't think this applies to my future.
Another selfish mindset I have, a psychologist as my ambition to impress people.
However, I do like to become one if you allow me to make a choice.
In actual fact, I only wish to become a mother.
Perhaps set up a small shop of my own, to pay for milk powder.
There's always my husband, right?
I don't want a normal life that every girl is thinking of now;
carving a career, marrying at 30 years, giving birth to 1/2 children.
Omg, that sounds completely ridiculous to me. Seriously.
I only want to live a life that fits my description now;
finish what my parents and relatives expect of me, a graduate,
get a man and get married before 25, regardless of financial status,
give birth to my first boy at my first go, with regards to financial status,
then continue with a second one,
finally the third one.
Preferably, the giving birth should occur all before 32 years.
I don't care any hoot about what happens in my career,
but while I want to be a mother,
I wish to become a psychologist too.
It's not an impossible plan.
sounds feasible, cool, special.
Therefore, I'm bent on becoming a psychologist.
Shit. It's psychiatrist.
There's difference in both of them.
Research yourself.
An ambitious girl who wishes to become a psychiatrist, and a mother of three;
that's the life I want.
Meanwhile, let's just mug incessantly for the 'O' levels.