baoyi asked me one really constructive question today
you still in it?
yet i have no answer for it
perhaps it takes more time than this
but i have learnt to let it go alr
i do have evidences (:
the fact that i still harp on some issues is because i still miss him
as far as i know he's disappearing
sorry.

a bit emo today
after the CO camp dinner
guess it's because it's the feeling of being outcasted at the beginning
but towards the end, it turned out pretty fine
at least i still feel some comfort and a little happiness.
i ate one otah, 4 satays i think, 3 pieces of sotong, two pieces of chicken
that's the so-called CO dinner
but not too bad
i expected nothing initially seriously
that piece of chicken is enough to fill my heart
it's quite funny to sit on the stage to eat
but i quite liked it (:
we are going to be seniors for the last year
thinking about this, let's just be dominant to the juniors once

then i'll link to this is our last year together
feel like crying because im a bit emo now
i used to look forward to JC to meeting new friends and whatever
but now i realised what a stupid mistake i made
i miss you all ;(
i dont feel like leaving anymore
because like that most probably we'll start leading separate lives again
what fuck
not emo now, being sentimental
maybe this is the only time when i can really say out how i really feel
when you are feeling most down, it's the time where your heart is bared out

it's hard to say hello
it's hard to bond
it's hard to stay together
it's hardest to say goodbye

although people always say we'll stay in contact what shit
but how many friends do you really stay together with for life?
a handful maybe
im not saying this to make everyone emo with me also
but to actually highlight to ourselves that we should cherish our times together
it's going to pass real fast
can you imagine ten weeks has alr passed this year?
and we dont really have much time left.
let's cherish each other.
let's.

being very sentimental today.
it's getting kinda heavy-hearted.
it's really hard to manage relations
so stop fighting kids.
but dont stop fighting.
because fighting is always a way of bonding
just dont go beyond the extreme

i just have a feeling that we, like toilet gang
got together too late
we should have organised it earlier
because we just got bonded too late
we were slow in heating up
just like metals and alloys
we took too long to bond
what a shame
time's running out.

i have one word for everyone that reads this
CHERISH
not cherry (:

let me give a summary of my march holidays

monday: we ate sushi at white sands, with my cousins and ahyi's
the beginning was filled with tears, because they are children.
and chengkiat started singing
damn cute
tell you he sang on standing at the platform
so cool right?
like mini superstar.
next time ask me show you the video
then we shen jing san gong zhu went to watch the leap years.
wasn't quite as dramatic as i thought it would be
he wasn't a criminal. rah.
but overall the movie was fine.
and i reached home quite late.
my bro went NCC camp
boring, but at least i had peace.

tuesday: mammy left for guangzhou
pa was sad of course
who would want their wife to fly off for so many days?
i can provide the simplest reason for pa's mood swings.
lonely lah. and he can't carry out some activities alone.
you know? (:
so i went for zhongruan
saw peiwen, miki, grace
they had NPCC camp
they looked kinda sad :(
i had backache and neckache
because tcher forbidded us to lean on the chair
she rebonded her hair
wow whatver
actually i kinda miss her
oh well
i just dont like her style of pressurising us
but i had fun
im such a caring senior (:

wednesday: today
i rushed wrapping theresa's present
and yea looks horrible
because i refused to use wrapping paper plus i dont have one
but it's right from my heart
at least inside had heart shapes
i made them when i was waiting for 39 to come to school for amath lessons
god. it's hard to make okay?
the paper i had was damn small
lucky i have my long nail (:
so amath lesson was a little drifty to me at the start
i had problems concentrating on wad ms tiong was trying to drive at
i was drifting to nowhere in fact
just stoning
i wonder if baoyi's stoning too.
maybe.
but finally i could understand
omg.
and i cleared all my funny doubts of the previous chapters
so it ended early. yay.
and i finally passed the amath tys money to ms tiong
yay lest i lose it
and we went to eat at tmart
8 of us.
gb, tc, by, ml, bc, rs, yl, den
yay.
winnie went for amath test ):
then we started talking and eating
so people left and winnie joined
and the only people left over were gb, yl, ml, by, winnie.
and we went ml's house
and we started highing over a cartoon
lol.
then we saw uncle chen (:
ml's brother lah.
winnie went back home to fetch some books while ml, by and yl waited at the busstop
so funny to pronounce myself as yl.
it rained and winnie made it back.
we took bus to tampines library
and while everyone was reading, i was doing amath homework
seriously when i look at winnie's storybooks and baoyi's amath textbook,
i preferred looking at baoyi's amath textbook.
that's like omg to me.
im so no life.
but it's a fact that i dont read storybooks
they prove to me as uninterested.
so we went tmall to eat tako pachi
yay. and we played with the boxes.
apparently i made the mistake of catching the box than let it fall to the floor
winnie could have picked it up
but i 'accidentally' dropped it on the floor
to know that im picking it up.
then we ate yakun toast
ml was emo and was gorging herself
in the midst, she was also gorging me
when i still felt happy.
to cheer her up, i offered to do all sorts of funny things
meiling, relax lah.
it's really okay if you hadn't study enough during the march holidays
but it's a fact that you did.
better than people who choose to just take things in stride
like me (:
dont worry too much.
because you did study.
we went back to school and yea CO camp dinner.
i felt even more comforted when we were leaving
when julian they all ask if we were leaving alr,
this goes to show that we are not all that left out
at least people feels sad for us leaving.
see?
actually it's quite fulfilling.
yep. contented
but like i always say.
the 2006 one is the best.
because there's you.
but sorry it dint start then.
it started after that.

okay we are back to the same topic right at the start again.
i guess you can always remain in a dark corner of my heart.