A horrible week packed with tests and projectwork is history now. Haha. I'm not worrying for my promos, which makes me anxious because I haven't studied much. I cannot sense the urgency. Actually, I hope someone can guide me to the correct feeling I should have.




I have no idea how much stress I'm under. I know that I'm pressurised, but I want to know the extent. It's quite uneasy not knowing how much stress one is under. As I'm typing, I'm starting to feel the stress. Apparently, I'm happy that I'm feeling anxious over promos. Because that is the gear that drives me to study.





Studying alone is the most effective. And I like to have the right feeling to study a particular subject too. I'm a very naughty and picky girl, I need the right feeling before I'm contented enough to start work.






I must work hard! :D I shall self-motivate myself. I'm a very independent person. That's how my mom always describe me to my teachers since primary school. Sigh. Anyway, it's a good comment. Haha.






I need to work hard so that I can do well.





I shall push myself till I reach the edge of the cliff. Be careful, don't fall off.

I shall make my posts sounds less abstract and more relevant. I kind of forget the fact that this is not a personal diary for my reference only. Haha.



Today is 090909. And I had a great time today. I shall not tell you who I went out with, but I love them! :D I barely studied and went out to play again. Woohoo! I'm such a playful person. So next time, when you want a playing companion, come look for me! :D



Let me tell you something funny my mother told me today. I asked her if I could go night studying with my good friend leechuang, she said it was stupid to study instead of sleep. Of course, I was a little pissed off, but I expected an answer along that line, so it was alright. Then she went on to say, " You don't need it anyway." Haha. :D



Our actions reflect our fear.

I told myself I would never forget yesterday. It finally happened. I would never ever forget it. Never ever.




You would be surprised how insignificant it was. I wished for that to happen since years ago. Seriously. It finally came true. Even if it was going to be the first and last time, I'm already happy enough. For at least, there was a single time. Sometimes, I wished all of these would never end. Honestly, it would seem simply insignificant and stupid to others, but it is like a surreal dream to me.




I know you are wondering what I'm trying to drive at again. But I suppose you can guess it some way or another. I know I'm being very foolish and stupid. Of course, I myself clearly know that I would never get it. As long as I'm happy and not regretful, that's all that really matters. The last thing I want to do is to reveal it out.





It seemed short-lived and I wished it never had an ending.