this week was common test week
so i have failed one subject alr
that's emath
omg my mind is full of mr lai and his 'fatherly love'
seriously im not mindful of failing the test
or rather how i'm going to face him
the last test i did averagely
and he gave me that face that i made such a huge booboo
this time sure die lah
he's going to condemn me
wahlao
i was alr thinking of him even before i completed the test
that's how serious things are getting
but the effect has subsided quite a bit alr
let's hope i dont get emotional when mr lai starts showering love


next my face has some rashes or sth
and a small cut
that i feel pain in moving my mouth
so i talk without opening my mouth too big
omg and my mother scared me by talking some nonsense
it's not that im image-conscious
but rather this is my face
and i still have to live with it for like a few more decades
hello i dont want any permanant marks on my face
and i start to apply many stuff on my face
but i think is because of my poor hygiene practices too (:


i told my mom about the fail the emath test stuff
she was like angry about some other stuff
so i told her at the wrong timing then
but later she started getting worried for me
she's not really that anxious about my results
i think is because a sudden drop in consistent work
might lead people to thinking that im suffering a mental breakdown or sth
and that's what my mom thought
she was like talking to me all about relaxing
and she forbidded me to study the whole day
she said go watch tv
i heck cared her
maybe she really thinks that mental breakdown really happened to me
but it's just that im too engrossed in history to concentrate on emath
just plain complacency again
arh emath so easy...
in the end, it's deproving.
so actually my mom's concerned about the mental well-being too
but at that point of time, i was also angry
because i was more worried for my face
hello that test is nothing? my face is more important duh.
but it's only rashes
remind me to wash my hands


i really have poor hygiene practices
i dont wash my hands
unless i feel that it's sticky or from the naked eye dirty
normally i can't live very well with the bacteria there
haha i dont wash my hands before i eat
im so dirty
oh ya and i bathe late
like maybe 10pm
i dont bathe when i go home
otherwise i have the tendency to sleep on the bed since im clean
if im dirty, i only can constrict myself to the sofa
hence i had rashes on my face
it's itchy rah


went to watch kungfu dunk yesterday
with my dear brother
it was alr 5.30pm when i reached my grandma's house
coz we had two free movie tickets that expires this month
'eh you wan watch movie?'
'ok lah'
'faster lah. 6.45pm got the last one.'
so we rushed to our home at 5.45pm
to change and whatever
we left house at 6pm
we are so damn efficient right?
oh ya i forgo my amath test, still haven learn lesson from emath :P
we bathed and etc
the super wongs~GO
and we ran to the busstop
asshamed that my brother could run faster than me to catch the bus
anyway he's a younger brother that's taller than me
so we took the mrt to tmall
and bought the tickets
kungfu dunk
yay
i like jay chou.
so gay
but not to such a large extent though


so boys just can't change
my brother went to the arcade
with only one dollar
stupid.


and we watched the movie.
it was pretty hilarious
dint regret watching
unlike some funny funny movie like the emporium
what shit.
so it ended like 8plus
i still havent studied for amath then.
we went to white sands
bought some food and waited for our mecedes to arrive :D
after buying doughnuts, i could notice my pa's car plate number
my bro can't. haha.
and we reached the car before my mom could contact us
so it was then i told my mom all about my emath
haiz


i started studying at 9pm
with tips of test from tys
i did the whole tys in hope of getting full marks for the tests
lame shit
but i slept half way
why?
i was doing it on my bed.
i study on my bed then i fall asleep
no one wakes me up
then i go unprepared the next day
so i always say im not prepared always
i have a feeling everyone hates this sentence of mine
when i say im not prepared,
there's two scenarios.
1. i crapped my way through miraculously and got a high mark and get paichi'ed
2. i crapped my way through and ended up like emath


but it's really scary to be top
there's this unknowing pressure on you
not only do you have to get high marks, you needa get top marks too
omg
get back test paper.
'yeeling full marks arh?'
'no'
i think math is okay
but the science one is horrible
esp for chem.
i will always aim to get top marks.
that's my goal for chem
of course.
i want my name to be read first
wakaka
bio also :D
actually im really very greedy
if i see the bio mark like
32/40
i feel that it's little.
but in actual fact that's the highest alr
not that im praising myself
or being proud here
just feel that it's really competiting with yourself
not others.
so i felt that was little
till i recalled that was the bio test i went corked-eye
and made numerous careless mistakes
the worst thing that can happen is
when you feel that you have lost to yourself


suddenly feel like typing a lot of stuff down
still feeling the slackness
very slack
god
hope the study groups help.
mr lai ):


let's pick sth random
oh i saw a rat running in the drain during daytime
so cool right?
the second one seen for this month
ever since it came out from the bags during OLE
it's really the year of the rat (:


too engrossed in studies and grades now
let me set my minimal goals for term one

eng - B3
hcl - A2
bio - A1
chem - A1
amath - A1
emath - B4 - the only exception - it dropped from a A1 - god
ss+eh - A1
pgeog - A1

god emath has the ugliest score
still can't draw a line or sth

ya the A1 i expect are those damn high ones
like 85?
im going crazy.