To update everyone what I am doing nowadays and for the rest of the year, I am here! :D





I have been typing reflections for the internship at Pathlight School. That's the reason why I have not been bored to come here. Anyway, I am still missing four more entries. Haha.





I have decided to take a one day leave on 15 december to attend the chalets. Apparently, I have two chalets, 2r6 chalet and TJCO chalet. I feel that I need to attend both. So, I have decided to take a day off! :D I shall go out to play! :D





After internship and chalets, come the dance practices for OGL. Don't doubt me, I am an OGL. Don't be too shocked upon hearing this. Perhaps I don't have a burning passion to cheer and dance, but I told myself to make it a memorable experience for everyone in my OG. I want them to love TJC! :D I need not be the one who is at the frontline cheering madly, because I want to be the one who makes sure that every single person is still with the team, safe and sound.





I hope I can be a good OGL. :D Hope I can master the cheers and dances well. Well, I think I can. That's why I joined! Yee Ling doesn't take something on, unless she has the confidence to do it and do it well! :D





For next year, I applied for H3 biology and I got it. I was pretty happy to have it. Haha. But it spells the beginning of busy fridays. I am still wondering how I will get to RI. But I suppose it would be quite interesting to study at a boy's school. Hohoho. Or was it RIJC? Whatever.





I suppose my internship has benefitted me in some way. I have been thinking about what I want to do in the future. I am still unsure of it. At this age, we ought to have some idea of what we want to do later. ): I shall try to think about it. :D





I want to build up my defences and weapons again, in case.

PW is over! :D




I don't know what I can do now. I don't feel like jumping into the pool of books again. It's a drain of my energy. I shall try to space out my time.





Now I have this really busy holiday to cope with. I'm quite happy. HAHA. It's a manageable holiday, I suppose.





I don't know, but I have this feeling that you want me out of your world.





Save the trouble. I wasn't even in.

It's time to say goodbye. You left without any trace. I can't bear to watch you leave. For you, didn't even give me a chance to bade farewell.




I can only watch from afar, sobbing deep down, why there wasn't any ending. It was just like a weak flame dying out slowly, barely showing its existance.




I turned my head back a few more times, look at you a few more times, for fear that I will never see you again. And I think I won't be seeing you in the future anymore.




May our memories relive one day. Otherwise, just stay buried deep.

I know I shouldn't be venting my frustration when I think of him. ):





I shall try to work out something. I know I can do it. (: Haha.





It's pretty contradicting to be sad and then happy the next moment. Frankly, I'm not feeling happy this night.





I dont't know what to say, if this is the way we are parting.

A horrible week packed with tests and projectwork is history now. Haha. I'm not worrying for my promos, which makes me anxious because I haven't studied much. I cannot sense the urgency. Actually, I hope someone can guide me to the correct feeling I should have.




I have no idea how much stress I'm under. I know that I'm pressurised, but I want to know the extent. It's quite uneasy not knowing how much stress one is under. As I'm typing, I'm starting to feel the stress. Apparently, I'm happy that I'm feeling anxious over promos. Because that is the gear that drives me to study.





Studying alone is the most effective. And I like to have the right feeling to study a particular subject too. I'm a very naughty and picky girl, I need the right feeling before I'm contented enough to start work.






I must work hard! :D I shall self-motivate myself. I'm a very independent person. That's how my mom always describe me to my teachers since primary school. Sigh. Anyway, it's a good comment. Haha.






I need to work hard so that I can do well.





I shall push myself till I reach the edge of the cliff. Be careful, don't fall off.

I shall make my posts sounds less abstract and more relevant. I kind of forget the fact that this is not a personal diary for my reference only. Haha.



Today is 090909. And I had a great time today. I shall not tell you who I went out with, but I love them! :D I barely studied and went out to play again. Woohoo! I'm such a playful person. So next time, when you want a playing companion, come look for me! :D



Let me tell you something funny my mother told me today. I asked her if I could go night studying with my good friend leechuang, she said it was stupid to study instead of sleep. Of course, I was a little pissed off, but I expected an answer along that line, so it was alright. Then she went on to say, " You don't need it anyway." Haha. :D



Our actions reflect our fear.

I told myself I would never forget yesterday. It finally happened. I would never ever forget it. Never ever.




You would be surprised how insignificant it was. I wished for that to happen since years ago. Seriously. It finally came true. Even if it was going to be the first and last time, I'm already happy enough. For at least, there was a single time. Sometimes, I wished all of these would never end. Honestly, it would seem simply insignificant and stupid to others, but it is like a surreal dream to me.




I know you are wondering what I'm trying to drive at again. But I suppose you can guess it some way or another. I know I'm being very foolish and stupid. Of course, I myself clearly know that I would never get it. As long as I'm happy and not regretful, that's all that really matters. The last thing I want to do is to reveal it out.





It seemed short-lived and I wished it never had an ending.