It's been pretty long since I blogged. Haha. Before this blog becomes totally deserted, I had better post something on it.



My schedule is still full. I can hardly find time out to even complete my tutorials. The only times when I start doing my tutorials is during weekends. How cool. Moreover, times during weekends are getting lesser and the tutorials seem to pile on. Honestly, I'm pretty afraid of dropping into the vicious cycle the maths tutor always mentions.




Actually, I haven't prepared much for the stuff this week. Oh no. Even if I have the time, I still choose to slack it off. HAHA. This is super contradicting. Hah.




I guess everyone's equally busy! My smile aint just a facade. It's still true happiness beaming from inside! :D And I hope everyone can take on life just as it is.




I think I'm like the slackest among the muggers.

I look like I'm not that stressed yet. I think that I'm not that stressed yet either. But perhaps I may be wrong.



This underlying stress is pulling my mood from one extreme to another. One moment, I'm freaking happy. The next, I'm so angry over the smallest thing. I lose my temper so easily. And I can see it. Am I really that stressed?



Perhaps you might be stressed out now too. It's good not to assume that you are not stressed, just because you think you haven't reached the maximum stress level yet. I guess it's normal now. Hope I can recover quickly. I don't want to turn into someone who is short-tempered.



I just realise that we need to moderate some of the things we wish to achieve. We can't always get perfect scores and standards.




We can do it.

I'm wondering if anyone reads my posts. Haha. But anyway, thanks for reading. It's like super boring, plus I'm getting preoccupied to update it often.



I'm feeling unwell now. Freaking unwell. Whatever.



I've been trying to make myself a better person. I've spotted where I'm weak at, where my loopholes are, where my mistakes are. So, Hence, I'm glad that I showed some minute improvements. Haha.




My mood, health and level of energy seems to determine how much I speak though. I'm especially quiet during those times. Perhaps I just seem to stand out when I don't talk at all. But I'm listening. (:




The small gathering on saturday was fufilling, despite me not speaking much. I admit I was a little sleepy then. Haha. But I enjoyed myself yea. Those times spent together were especially blissful.




I always thought I walked out of it, but in fact, I never did.

I'm getting more and more preoccupied with each day. As you can see, my bored times seemed to be disappearing, thus blogging here becomes less often. I even need serene to poke at me before I blog. Hah.



I guess this is how our lives are going to be transformed. I hope everyone has made arrangements for this change. I know I have and I think I overdid it somehow. Haha.




Orientation week was more fun than I expected it to be. Perhaps it's because I get to know more people. And when people make friends, we just get this natural sense of satisfaction. I love OG 12 man. I seriously think that we shouldn't be changing houses. I love daekaron man.




I enjoyed myself for the past week lah. But today right, I felt perhaps I don't fit in. A thought of regret flashed through my mind. I questioned myself if I was in the right place, the right school. Maybe because it's way different. Whatever, I just concluded that I won't fit in anywhere. Haha. Yee Ling just needs more time to adjust.




The maths lecture was pretty entertaining, because the lecturer was pretty humurous. I enjoyed it, except for that fact that I wasn't able to grasp the concept immediately the moment I was taught it. This kind of pisses me off.





The econs lecture was a total silent one. She's like super demanding. And I can't stand her voice. Haha. Actually I wanted to write this on my paper - What the fuck is she talking about? - But I didn't. Soon, I got the hang of it, and was on my way to listening and processing. It's something similar to human geography. Somehow I guess econs will be my weakest subject.





Oh yea, there's something I really wanted to do during the econs lecture but didn't do. Haha. (:





Mesmerised by you.

I havent been blogging recently, because I was hooked on to the diner dash game on the psp. Still addicted, nothing I can do about it. Entertaining it may be, but it certainly does damage to the eyes and fingers. Feeling pretty sick everytime I stop though. Anyway, I cant help it.




Yesterday I went for a run at my nearby park. It was an unexpected event though. I was awoken when my brother was counting money of some sort in the room, and I couldn't get back to sleep. Thus I decided on having a run. My mother was kind of shocked too.




Running is good, I guess. For at least it can help remove some toxins, especially for someone who has been rotting away at home for so long. It's time to exercise! Haha.




Perhaps everyone can use some exercise now. Yea now.




Because healthy people are happy people.




Why end it?

It looks like I'm still rotting at this moment. Hah. I spend my days out, and it's mostly to kill time or to buy stuff. At the same time, it gives me more time to think about what I'm going to do later on in life.



There's a period where I thought my ambition was to become a psychiatrist. Then suddenly I decided that perhaps it's only on impulse. And it kind of clashes with the kind of life that I really hope to achieve. After all, what I wanna do is to have children. (:




But looking at how the world is becoming, I think there will be an increasing number of people seeking psychological treatment. Hah. Maybe being a psychiatrist aint too bad after all.




I just lack the drive to go research on how I'm going to be one. Anyway, the main motive is to be happy with the job and its monetary terms. :D




I'm still pondering over what I'm going to be in the future. Perhaps what I think I'll be won't be what I am going to be. Let's just choose the paths that we want to take, and not let yourself be trapped in one place.




Play while we still can.

I got my results back a few days ago. Hah. I did better than I expected. Way better. I thought I would do something crazy, like jump around. Haha. I didn't.




Until now, I'm still basking in my own world of happiness. I find this whole situation pretty unbelievable. I thought perhaps I don't deserve it, because it feels like I just scrape through the whole thing. But as I come to think of it, everyone said that I mugged a lot, and I think I did too.




I've got 8 pure distinctions out of 9 subjects, if you forgot. Haha. My english got a B3. My Higher Chinese got an A1, and I thought perhaps I'm really lucky.




I've attained 6 points, with 4 bonus points. In short, 2 points.




I can barely believe it until now. I achieved something that I never even dreamed of.





Anyway, I'm going to TJ. Yea.





I LOVE RUISHAN! (: