Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I lost my white gingerbready earrings. Perhaps I misplaced them. Whatever the case, it sucks. And my mother told me they ran away. HAHA. If they really belong to me, I believe they'll walk back to me, hopefully. If they don't, just buy another similar pair lah.

):


I want the same old pair though, those that were once right in my ears.
I'll be waiting for your return.

Monday, July 28, 2008

Do you wanna marry me? - I placed this as my personal message on msn, and wenyi thinks that I'm despo. Wth. Whatever you want to imagine, I don't care. I'll find one on my own. I don't need external help or blind dates from Ruishan. And since when did Ruishan take on many roles? Arh, I know, Mother cum Father. YAY. =D



Regarding my fan club, that everyone is dying to know about, it's non-existant. I didn't acknowledge it right from the start. So, I don't know what winnie wants to do as my manager. Swat flies with the cang ying pai?



Yesterday I had this headache that was comparable to an earthquake. I had to go to sleep at 11.30pm, because I thought my head was about to split into two. I tell you, panadol is a great painkiller. Pop one into your mouth, tada! Your headache is cured the next day. Aha. With sleep, of course. But bear this mind, don't eat too many panadol.




We are going to the Shell petroleum thingy tml. WOOHOO. Of course, the best thing is we get to skip lessons. Heahea. I'm sure it's going to be damn fun tml.





Everyone changes every single second. No doubt.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

I know I should be studying now.
Too bad I wasted my weekend again.
HAHA.
I screwed my schedule again.

I changed back to the old scheme.
The colour looks kinda odd, but I can change it anytime conveniently.
It's more user-friendly.
I guess.

I was looking for a suitable picture, and yea it's sandcastles.
But who said sandcastles can't come in the form of breasts?
=D
I browsed through some photos and made interesting discoveries.
Meiling looked adorable last time.
Amanda looked prettier with her old fringe last time.
Winnie looks smarter now.
Theresa looks younger.
Baoyi looks the same outside, inside not.
Serene looks more matured.
Geraldine changed her specs only.
I look prettier. HAHA.

Let's continue building sandcastles.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Ruishan, my so-called mother, is pushing to get married eh?
What a wonderful mother sia.
Find me someone lah. HAH.
I want a man taller than me, handsome, matured with the papa feeling, caring, loves me, a bit naughty, must have money. And lastly, eyes cannot be too big.
Okay. Help me find. I'll be waiting. (:

I like matured ones hor. Don't suggest some little boy for me.
I like older guys. HAHA.
Thank you ruishan. =D

Yay, my lonely days are about to be over.
Boooooooooo, there goes my freedom.













I only want to be yours.

Friday, July 25, 2008

I thought of something today.
More people are getting married at a later age, or just stay single.
On the contrary, getting married and having kids is always what I've wished for.
HAH I'm a pro-Singaporean. But that's not the reason.

I've always thought that it was the mission of humans to reproduce.
Life wouldn't be complete without your spouse and kids.
Aint it so?
For the previous generations, people work hard just to provide for their family.
Anyway, more kids means more retirement money. Aha.

But today, I thought, 'What if I decided not to get married or not to have kids?'
This question shook me.
I pondered and stared at the moving scenery.
Impossible.
This goes to indicate how much marriage and parenthood mean to me.

I guess it's too early to talk about such stuff and the future is unknown. blah.
But I seriously think everyone should at least have a rough estimation.
You might just get married next year. HAHA. crap.

Oh well, I would want to accomplish my mission in life though.
To reproduce. (:
Not now, of course.

I'm so bored mugging, that I'm talking nonsense here.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

That sudden reminisce feeling which seized me at that moment is unforgettable.
It came so quickly and went hastily.
It's like letting you lick a lollipop once.
I'm glad this deja vu came.
But I myself know that the moment of true freedom will come only after I can let go of every desire I have.
Unfortunately, this state of mind is unattainable.
Because I believe everyone is self-centred in this world.

We'd always selected the world, we wish to be in.
But it's turn for the world to select us.
Too bad, only the fittest survives.
At this point, everyone is self-centred to fight for their rights.
We have no choice, but to accept what that comes along.
Learn to accept.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

It's getting rather boring in school nowadays.
Quite missing those days where we just poke fun at each other.
I can sense that the tension is arising.
But I'm just continuing my monotonous life.
Sleep, eat, study, eat, mug, watch tv, eat, mug, sleep again.
These components are what that make up my life.
And yea, I eat and study together.
The worst thing is, I'm forever doing maths.

I was told I had a fan club.
I've no comments and I won't accept it.
Thanks arh.
We are classmates.
Anyway, I'm not a superwoman either.
I understand my concepts, but I'm not intelligent enough to explain them.

I'd like to be humble.
I'm afraid I'll be spoilt under the spotlight.
I only want myself to be recognised.

I like the feeling of being lost in my own world.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Yesterday I was in the rain.
It seemed to just wash my senses away.
I should be angry yesterday, but I didn't.
This seriously amazes me.
I always do.
It's just damn fucking stupid to do that, but I couldn't feel a single thing.
On the contrary, I questioned myself.
'How are you feeling now?'
I arrived at the conclusion of mixed feelings.
I was with winnie queuing stupidly at yoga lin's autograph session.
I got a fucking nothing, except a drenched sexy shirt.

I can't tolerate another someone in your eyes.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

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I'm going nuts.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I had this deja vu feeling, that practically left me staring into space.
It's still lingering.
And I hope it would stay.
I'm still stoning.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I'm definitely not possessed or obsessed or whatever.
I'm not less serious than before, really.
I'm becoming more serious about the consequences that are going to follow.
There are some things we just can't force our way through.
It's like preparing for the worst to happen.
Just take it easy and accept it.
It's definitely better than bearing grudges when the real thing happens.
If it doesn't, Of course it's the best thing in our life.
We have to learn how to take things in our stride.

I was not feeling hyper yesterday night.
I was a patient, with my nose on the verge of dropping out.
I was sms'ing and decided to sms people good luck for today's listening.
Anyway, since I took mine last year, might as well wish them good luck.
It really changes one's mood to see an unexpected greeting.

Since we were released damn early today, got listening mah,
we went for sushi.
I still yearn for that heavenly taste of raw salmon.
=D
Then we spotted our science and maths teachers there.
Mrs Wee, Mrs Pong, Miss Gan, etc.
Everyone's feeling rich eh?

On the contrary, I'm even more broke than yesterday.
I just fell for another temptation.
Apparently, I always do.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Our eyes are the best cameras, here to capture the wonders of life.
Unfortunately, it also captures the ugly side of life as well.

Sometimes you are so adamant on your stand, refusing to budge, it seriously hurts the other party. Sometimes, you are just so lenient with your feelings, that one sentence can totally change your decision. Seriously, I don't understand why. You are so fickle with your decisions.

Admit it, we are self-centred.

I'm broke again. Give me money, to the someone out there.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Yes, I made up my mind to go TJ.
But of course, I can't count my eggs before they are hatched.
So, MUG NOW.

The night study was damn deserted today.
All who remained were the 4R3s.
One word to describe - hilarious.

Actually I've not a single idea what I want to be.
Though I always said I wanted to be a psychiatrist, things aint really working out.
It's rather a dream than ambition.
I'm thinking of being an entrepreneur.
HAH.
But I still wanna complete my studies till university.
It's a form of practice that no one can escape from.
The road of education is rather stupid in this sense,
not allowing us to pursue what we really desire in life.
I only want to be a successful entrepreneur.
Oh well.

I realised how fortunate and blessed I am.
I have a good family background, many friends.
I have financial support, family support and peer support.
Not yet suffered any major setbacks or difficulties.
Good academic results and pink health.

I believe everyone who reads this, is equally fortunate and blessed as well.
Don't count your blessings.
It's stupid, as though counting rice.
What's critical is to cherish your present and embrace the future.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I could do 10 inclined pull-ups.
YAY.
But it's teacher who was lenient.
Oh well.

We shared our childhood photos.
Everyone could recognise me immediately, suggesting that I didn't really change a lot.
I'm very adorable. =D

We are starting to be going a little bonkers nowadays.
But, if we don't now, when will we have another chance?
Next year? Perhaps yes, perhaps no.
I'll miss everyone.
Things may look a little stupid now, but it'll definitely be part of our lovely memories.

I camped at Theresa's house.
Thanks chewchew.
Cheyenne was shedding and got me all furred up.
She has really become disciplined under Theresa's training.
And she could understand my commands. (:
The only thing is, I called cheyenne good boy.

The night study was great.
Seriously, time flies and you are heading home the next moment.
Pretty productive I say.
I'm going tml.
YAY.
=D

In the process of pursuing our studies, we may have neglected some of the other components of our life, especially our family.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

The trip to Genting was fun.
Except for the part that I had to mug.
I did, but not a lot obviously.
It's cloud nine there, with the fluffy white clouds.

We went to the theme parks.
Surprisingly, I took the most intimidating rides.
I didn't really expected myself to be flying in the air.
Corkscrew was one of them.
The course was really wrecking, with many turns and twists.
I knocked my right ear against the bar for several times.
Somehow I had this bloody feeling.
I peered over and saw this pool of blood on my hand.
Completely distracted, I started looking for my earring.
Ah, on my lap.
At this point in time, I was still on the corkscrew.
But I was so overwhelmed with my ear, I completely forgot I was still on the ride.
It's exuberant to be screaming your head off.
Seriously.

I happen to sprain my right arm.
I was too engaged in the arcade game.
HAHA.

I miss the clouds.
(。・ω・。)

Friday, July 4, 2008

I'm going genting tml.
Please don't sms me.
Because I'm bringing my phone along.
I thought I was going on a study camp,
since there weren't be much to do there.
Oh well.

Mug with your comrades.
(:

Thursday, July 3, 2008

People who have no common sense are terrorists.
I was terrorised by two girls who were a little retarded.
I'm not trying to be discriminating here, but they are really terrorists.
I'm sitting fine on the bus there, then one stepped on my foot and the other tugged my hair.
Although it's sardines, this doesn't give them permission for invasion.
It's nuts, especially when it's in the early morning.
And I happen to be running late for school.
I was damn pissed, that I could shoot laser eyes.
Obviously, both of them couldn't read my face and eyes.
They went fuck.
So I wasn't friendly in the morning.

There's this rapist around Tampines.
He's 1.6 metres.
Kinda short for a rapist, which puts people off guard, given a shorty.
Well, I guess he'll be caught in no time.
Short guys will be suspects, especially when there aint many. Aha.

I'm sorry if I called you a fucker.
It's just that it rhymes with farter.
(。・ω・。)

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

I was being rather down yesterday.
And yea, I tend to lose my rationale and blabber out my own secrets when I'm down.
I didn't know I'm so stupid.

I have no idea why, but school seems to be getting increasingly enjoyable.
I'll bloody miss everyone when we go our separate ways.

We got back the geog test results.
It wasn't a desirable mark, but it's a pass.
I had mixed feelings.
I can't stand this lying down.
Come on geog comrade.

We had napfa test today, mainly sit and reach.
I was pretty upset that I missed 2cm to an A grade.
So I retried.
YAY. I got my only A.
AHA.
I really marvel at the fact of having myself stretch so far,
when I can never touch both my toes with straightened legs.

I'm happy.
=D

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Everyone had someone they liked.
I definitely know who I like.
I'm a little tired and weary from this entangled cycle.
I can't be rational enough to put you down and send you packing from my mind.
As much as I want your reciprocal love, I enjoy the life I'm having now.
Not thinking and dreaming about the love that can't even fill my stomach.
I really want to stop guessing now.

But when I finally want to leave this cycle, everything went deja vu.
I love the feeling, but I hate the feeling.
I would be unwilling to leave then.

I see people taking such infatuations simply at face value.
How can you evaluate your fondness for one?
It's ridiculous.
Nevertheless, it's these people who can ultimately remain independent on their own.

I'm still reliant on you.
If I persist, I guess only time can wash away the contradiction I've.
If I no longer like you some day, you can pretty well act as my shield for secrets.
AHA.

I wasn't supposed to tell people this.
I was too carried over by the fact that people I trust,
whom I told my secrets to, would keep it locked-up.
Alas, it got all spilled out.
I gave my darkest secrets away, because I believed people would listen and keep it there.
After betraying this trust, everyone knows who I like.
I might as well announce to the whole world that.
It's too late to apologise.
I bet he's the only one left who doesn't know that I liked him.

If I could let go this foolish love,
I guess I'll be free as a dove.
Yet I'm terribly strapped,
So here's why I'm still fuckingly trapped.
Though I'm in the midst of agony,
Without it, I feel hopelessly empty.
I wished I could put an end to things,
but when did such exist?