Sunday, November 25, 2007

heahea here to report the good news...
2 GOOD NEWS~

1. as from last post..I LOST MY WALLET...
then toa payoh library called to say they found my library and ezlink card
which is good...no need to spend more money
i went with serene there to claim back my lost wallet
afterall...my wallet cant walk back to me
we went there and yea...i was so happy to see the librarian take out a black wallet
wakaka...so happy...then cos they needed me to prove my identity
i took out my...passport...they did told me to bring on the phone ytd
scared that i might lose such an important document...
i brought my expired passport...lol
it expired on 16 dec 2005...
lucky the person dint notice or dint mind
but its equaly hard to get hands on expired passports
and my wallet returns back to me
everything was intact...except for the cash
even the $2 that i picked up from the ground was dug out
professional thief i guess..if it was pickpocketed
the rest of the other stuff...even the cashcard also dint take
relief to me...but when my mom tried it in the car that machine...ERROR
not my fault...my dad was suggesting the thief replaced a spoilt one
the coins were intact...miracle...this person dint wan the coins
and my bo pian is still there! yeh~
that was my greatest relief...
cash were taken away...as wad i calculated ytd...$100+
i felt the pinch in the morning...
when i tot of how i can better use the money...
but my wallet is back...yay!
but i feel so not familised with my wallet...
it feels so weird...like it's been molested, robbed...lol
like not mine anymore...no longer pure...deng
nvm...i learn my lesson
thank you thief for being a a nice one to return my wallet without cash

2. THE NUMBER TWO GOOD NEWS!
when i have lost my money...
it was exchanged with good luck...
my mom found my IC letter...
YAY! WOOHOO!
and it's still in time for everything...heahea
plus i downloaded some mindmapper software...
and when i download finish...open...need license key...
siao like how i noe wads the key...
i gave up the first time...but as soon as my mom found the letter
i decided to try again...and the same license key is needed
i tried some weird looking words in the email...cannot
i cant stand it anymore...and i typed
license...since you wanted license
then OMG...it worked and i can use alr...OMG
some money sure can buy a little luck
but i decided to hand draw anyway lol

i believe that everything is fated
but we can create miracles =D

Friday, November 23, 2007

ok i lost my wallet for real
for the first time after the many times i always tot i did
this is really for real
im like SO damn suay lah pls
first i must thank geraldine for accompanying me all the way
giving me just the right amount of concern i need
winnie for walking me all the way there back to bugis for the first time
amanda...haha...thanks for helping me lighten my load
check until my jacket missing too
its really not my fault this time
but luckily it was found...or else i'll only be CHA...another blow
thanks denise and baoyi for guarding the books at lee kong chian library
thanks beecheng, ruishan, meiling, christine, serene for helping do appeasement at B1
then worry, wait for me...then later go bugis food junction again
THANKS
but the result for today was still...wallet lost
nevertheless...my hp is still there
i only lost my wallet
actually losing the wallet is alright
but is the aftermath that matters
i called my mom...inform her will be good
then she was quite ok with it
not like my ah-yi...omg...she completely blah blah blah...
emotional yeeling can no longer take it
and sheds one drop of tear and says
bu yao jiang le...bye bye~
and i wipe off my tear and everything is fine again...
and okay i know i will get it when i get home
shit
and i wasn't feeling the pinch with so much property gone

content in my wallet:
money around 101 dollars bah
1 50 dollar note, 2 10 dollar note, many 5 dollar note maybe 5?, one 2 dollar note
coins should be worth around 2 dollars bah
i dint know that i had so much money in my wallet
my papers and receipts
one heart shape folded from 2 dollar
another 2 dollar i picked from the ground many months ago, i stuffed it somewhere
the cross stitch...picture of cow since primary 6
one bookmark with piggy, my ah-yi give de
my piggy card...the friends forever sth one

the more important stuff
ezlink card...shit man
library card...i went to cancel it the moment i reach white sands
minitoons card...doesn't matter
cashcard...i just got from my mom today for photocopying
she said...li mian bu dong duo shao qian
so like i so dui bu qi wo mother lah
popular card...though bar code spoil...but still can use until 31/7/08
still long long lah pls...wasted
comic card...it has the similar golden thing imprinted on the card...cashcard in short
i should have gave it to my bro...wasted
still got my most regretted thing i lost...BO PIAN!
the green one was my favourite...still got 2 brown ones that i dont use
and my can opener thingy...lol

everything was fated today lah
so fated...when we went back bugis to search right
to no avail...gb when walking back
suddenly said....
deng yi xia ru guo you pass guo mai chi de dian...rang wo mai dong xi chi
sth like that...OMG...i dreamt of this scene...
suddenly i rmb! okay so this was so damn fated ._.

i got home and my mom was like quite cool about it
my ah-yi was sleeping...thank god
my two cousins were like detectives
they dint believe i really lost my wallet...they ransacked my bag....
i was a bit moody...but i got fine...
after my ah-yi woke up...she forgot...so yeh!
my dad was quite COOL over the matter
orh bu jian...ok ._.
my ah-yi told me korea is snowing now...heahea
i nvr play with snow before...i wan go korea
korean food no onions right? lol

then the most AMAZING thing happened...
after i came out of my bathroom undressed...just bathe finish
ring ring...call for me...
then i was like home number...not about my wallet de haiz
then she said she found my ezlink card and library card...OMG
there is always good ppl other than evil ones...eg mr lim
if no hy project, no need go library, no wallet missing, wont pon co, will be in sch
shit you lah mr lim... :x
then someone dropped it at the bookdrop at toa payoh library
okay...so the person who picked it up lives near toa payoh LOL
but thank you!
at least for now i no need spend $20 go make another one
i can borrow books again...for wad?
i was too happy..that i forgot ask if it was found with a wallet
deng...i tried calling again...but it's closed
but most probably it will be together with the wallet
cos who will wan return ezlink card and library card only?
but there's no guarantee...dont get hopes to high...

one last thing...
to my dear wallet...
even if you are not found tml...i wan tell you that you are the best wallet ever
i wont change you again...i wont replace you with a new one
cos this morning i just told my mom...
mommy, i wan change my wallet
then you just ran away from me today...
come back tml yea?
money gone nvm
the rest still intact i happy le

this made me realise how real this world is
it has always been there...greed
however, integrity is there too
i have learnt my lesson =D
learn to let go completely for it makes one contented

Saturday, November 17, 2007

HAPPY BDAY TO YEELING=D
SINCE IM SO HAPPY, IM GOING TO TYPE IN CAPS
WAKAKA
SO HAPPY, ENRAPTURED, EUPHORIA!
SO MANY PPL WISH ME HAPPY BDAY~

MUST SING HAPPY BDAY SONG

HAPPY BDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BDAY TO YEELING~
HAPPY BDAY TO YOUU~
YAY~

I GOT SO MANY WISHES
THANKS!
I HAVE ALREADY FORGOTTEN ALL MY PROBLEMS LE.

WOOHOO!
GO YEELING~
HAI DAI ARH HAI DAI~

I'LL RMB THIS YEAR'S BDAY
IT'S THE BEST BDAY
WITH YOU=D

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

im like so damn fucking tired of life already
i have never really met any problems or obstacles in my life
so i never knew how to tackle them properly
im like only casting my problems aside
i never went and solve my problems one by one
frankly speaking, im just a spoilt child
a girl who never knew how to solve her problems
everything was always smooth in my life
everything went right, never did it ever go as wrong as now
im like so tired over all the struggling and internal warfare in me
this emotional suffering and struggle is adversely affecting my body
one day, im really going to fall real ill with all the kinds of illness
i cant always store the problems up
everyday, little by little, i store and keep my problems to myself
and the problems i keep to myself, are only the problems that i noe
surely there are always some under-lying problems somewhere that will appear soon
i guess all the problem added together can really break me down
i dont even wan do anything
i just wan do nothing
everything is just practically failing me
this fail, that fail, everything also fail
i dont feel like going to sch alr
its so sick
the problems i face may look simple to overcome to many ppl
but because i never face problems mostly
i dunno wad is the meaning of fail
even if i have failed before, i only dismiss it with a
eh everyone fail too, no difference
i never knew how to solve my problems
just in this week
i have broke down
at least i know im not completely alone
but wads the use?
i noe there are ppl who know how i work
and are trying to convey to the ppl who dunno
but i too much a perfectionist
when i think im no longer a perfectionist
i have grown to be more of one
i realised that i have not been paying attention to myself
especially the inner me
im just doing wad im supposed to do everyday
like a zombie and dog
just doing my duties
i really need the space dearly
pls dont think im emo, but if you think im emo, i dont care
cos i dont think emo is bad
emo to me is just jing yi jing
but im not getting this since eap started
this fucking life sucks
i have been caring about other's feelings that im just forgetting myself
although i have small problems, but when a lot add together
its tooo big a burden for me to bear anymore
let me just say, one more burden, i may just stop talking
let me just let everything out

chemistry QA sucks, i can never get the desired results
wad am i doing? borrowing reagents from ruishan
taking the silver nitrate one drop by one drop
no ammonia appears, i seriously think that smelling will be even better
worst thing is i did the limewater for 3 times
and all the limewater were all sucked up into the other tube
my paper got all wet with chemicals
cannot do finish on time
cannot copy stuff on time
the worst thing as a perfectionist is i die also have to copy every word
or else i'll just be unhappy with the entire ws
i'll feel that it is just incomplete

ok then my bag strip wan to break off le
its like my dearest bag lah
although still can use
but wad i wan is sling not carry like aunty
but wad can i do? clobber?
its like everything even the one that sticks to me most, my bag
has failed on me

then my nric haven come yet
actually i dint noe such a thing existed till amanda came and asked me
making me all jittery
my mom is like tou du ke
what i wan now is comfort and advice
not your critisism
why tell me that the ic existed
fucking shit

chalet, i noe MA is also very stressed over the issue
but i alr said that i can help you
why dont you trust us, the toilet gang to help you
even if i always say i wan buy meat
i can still do other stuff as well as buy meat
but i think now, i dont even wanna eat meat
MA, just trust us lah
dont cancel the chalet

the kao ji music exam
thats even more fuck
i dint wan to go yet our tcher still force us to go
wads the point?
i dont get it
im quite neutral when she was anything
when she started using that harsh tone
i dint wan go anymore
now if im really pushed over my limit
i may just quit everything
pay money dont turn up lor
as simple as that
why would i even need a cert to prove that i can play zhongruan?
i have reached my limit to this issue
i tried fighting, but i still succumbed
wads the use?

its my bday haha
when its supposed to be a happy event
im feeling like so damn sad
is this my bday present? IS IT?
where's my bday present? i have to be there to buy it myself...
i dont mind lah, but its like so weird and the more i think of it
the weirder it gets, you wan me to pay for the present first?
i just came to realise that all toilet gang presents are mostly bought with the presence of me
cos why, im the money dispenser
is this how my bday is going to turn out?

i hate stress
and i hate to be in the spotlight
cos i cant bring myself to believe that i can do it
in face of stress, i can only panick then fail
all the tchers are giving me stress
im like so damn unlucky to be called everyday
especially miss zahra..do i have the face that says
eh call me.
look at her not good, dont look at her also not good, do nothing also not good
and got so many assignments

plus you think these are the only problems?
you are wrong
there are more, definitely
i dont get the motivation from all my sources alr
my cousin chengkiat, he's always sleeping
hence these few days he dint kiss me goodbye
the worst of all the worst things is
you are never there for me
when i need your presence the most
you are enjoying yourself somewhere else
do you know that im suffering internally?
i only need your presence, i no need you to say stuff to me
i only ask so little from you
why cant you just fufil my wish?
i really need you now

im trying hard to learn how to accept mistakes
pick myself up and continue walking on
but im afraid i need more than just this little bit of time
i just cant seem to control my emotions well
im feeling better than just now alr
give me time

time can be the medicine for me
time can be the poison im accumulating

Sunday, November 11, 2007

life is so dead until i have to add some colours to myself
so bored eh so im going to make yeeling's's ming yan yay~

life is so dead
how later is your later
follow your true self
dont think tooo much
just do it without thinking
dont be afraid to make mistakes
be brave enough to face up to it
be strong in face of obstacles
act strong will do fine too
when most weak, put up a false front, dont collapse
if you wan be weak, you must be at your weakest
dont be too strong, unless you wan be superwoman eww
walk properly, dont bang into wall, stick, lamp post etc
upon collision, say sorry to the wall, stick or lamp post
even if you think you are crapping, just continue
sometimes a cold joke can do wonders
be happy but be emo too
dont push yourself over the limit, unless you wan a breakdown
be tortoise sometime, dont be too fast, you will miss the process
eat slowly, dont choke
when met with obstacles, take it easy
count to ten, think of me ( yi ling )
take a deep breath and scream...into your pillow
when you wan cry, suck back your tears, cry when you are bathing
dont cry, count to ten, take a deep breath
be daring to try new stuff, step out of your shell
dont be afraid to oppose, but do it quick
the longer you wait, the less confidence you will have
if you wan do it, do it quick
set a target, chiong arh~
dont walk aimlessly
dont trip and fall
be the last to speak
always stand firm on your stand, dont waver and sway
admit your mistake and be proud to confess it loudly
love everyone around you
love your family
love yourself
stop hating, cos it carries the same weight as love
just ignore
when you have bad luck, you will have good luck later
never attempt to kill yourself
count your blessings
dare to dream
but be realistic please
stay awake, dont be drunk
when you see a psycho, just be more psycho than the psycho
you cant return to the past, just continue walking on
if you are injured, there will always be a helping hand
when your wing is chipped, there's always your legs
put yourself in the latter's shoes
dont just look at situation your way
there are always more than one meaning

example
koala hanging onto stick in the mud
think of the image now before reading on
how many scenarios did you think of?
i tot of 2 scenarios
1. koala grabbing onto stick vertically, both sinking into mud soon
2. koala standing outside mud, holding onto stick at other end
anyway in both scenarios, the stick is dying lol

there should be more...but i just cannot think of it
i'll update and continue to work on it LOL
hope you have been inspired...by at least some of them =D

Monday, November 5, 2007

so cool lah
my bday got so many events on
although most like not confirmed but like my bday got so many things so compacted
is ngee ann open house den got like so many things
actually i created those troubles myself
i kinda volunteered myself for the mr ong pe thing
wear tie, stand over there, smile and talk
so simple den get 10 hours CIP..tats wad mr ong said
lets hope he's not bluffing me
but like just go lor...i noe its my bday
tats why im doin sth meaningful
instead of staying at home and watch tv
its like so boring~
i just wan come out
i wan my ultimate present
i hope i get it..i'll be happy which may last me next year
so powderful right, the present?
den im like actually quite sian with co lah
i dont even wan go..just feel like pon
i no longer think of co as a responsibility..but a burden
i spend a long time figuring out a sentence tat best describes me now
but so sad so bad...i still have to bear with it
the only 3 reasons im staying cos...
1. CCA points 2. my baobei zhongruan 3. the wonderful memories
so sad right? but i still have to bear with it
i tot it over and tot that the best way to solve
is to just occupy myself with more co stuff
so i feel more a part of co...instead of apart from co
i agreed again to participate in the performance for dazu
omg...nvm lah...at most push mr ong's offer away...
but he say got shift...i noe no one wan to afternoon shift de
wakaka...it's ok bah i suppose...=D
let me talk on two more things before i sleep
first thing...today i need to pluck up a lot of courage to go inside cd shelter
i finally understand why ppl say they are sick of co..pon co arh
i stepped in...and i was like...tat familiar feeling...
like suddenly so emotional...nvr cry lah
den just carry out practice lor
the aircon is still as cold...zzzz
second thing...when wan go home
when i was keeping the chairs
i was like thinking...eh go toilet
den walk past quartrangle...den go the old toilet...LOL!
i really tot so...cos like become xi guan
it's demolished now...i feel the pain..xin tong
goodbye canteen and hall...maybe im the one tat loves and appreciates you most
ok maybe not the most...but im like a bit toot lah
i still like insist on walking there
i wan the past...come back eh
pls dont leave...
anyway...my bday is on 17 nov...rmb my present
both my presents... ._.
plus just a wish from you will do..really =D

Friday, November 2, 2007

i have been doing crazy stuff suddenly OMG
maybe im goin crazy wakaka
i feel like telling everyone who reads tis MY RESULTS! yay~
let me go get my report book...whoosh~
im back ._.'''
tis is the first time my parents wan see my report book
before i let them sign next year...next year 1st jan?
im not showing off here...just tat i wan do sth stupid
you wan see..you see..dunwan see just dun see lor ._.
see already dont start to pai chi wo..
or stab me from the back..
ok here goes...

english language 66 B3
higher chinese 70 A2
additional mathematics 84 A1
mathematics 83 A1
biology 77 A1
chemistry 87 A1
combined humanites (S,H) 73 A2
geography 81 A1

total:621/800
percentage: 77.6%
class position:1/42
level position:3/277
L1R4:6
L1R5:7

wan my comments?
always standard one
Yee Ling is a polite student. She has performed consistently well for the year. Do keep it up!

i got same position as amanda and nicolette..so cool wor
same everything
we come from loyang primary same class..from zhongruan..heahea
so cool lah..but ultimately...im better wahaha
cos i take the hardest combination..
nicolette take physics and geog..physics so easy..
amanda take bio and POA..POA is like even easier
i take bio and geog eh...bio hard..geog also hard..
so should be im the better...3R3 win!
yay~i suddenly rmb im from pure EM1 wahaha
maybe i have been feeling zi bei for a long time
the sudden sucess like a bit scary
oh well...i improved from midyear
i got 76.8%only with 8 points
so i got improve wor wahaha~
one last thing...jay chou rocks~
yipeee~~~

Thursday, November 1, 2007

i have the sudden urge to learn taekwando
but actually i have been spelling it wrongly-taekwondo
but like so cool lah when i go wikipedia
i look at the picture..a bit violent
but fun eh...heahea...i wan a black belt...wadeva
when i go JC or poly..i'll wan learn taekwondo
nice lah...train to concentrate your mind also...cool man
suddenly i like taekwondo so much
tat i dunwan go back co...like i wish tat practice would nvr ever start
or teacher go china den dont come back also good
like tired of co le..no interest left
i dont even care a *toot* about co
but seriously when i walk past cd shelter den i see the door open
i feel like walking in..dunno why..
maybe i have lost the interest...but i still can accept goin back in
i wan my zhongruan...like since sch started renovating..
i have nvr went in cd shelter before
i think my zhongruan can become woody biomass le
dont worry my dear dear baobei..you are worth more than $600 to me
even if i dont wan go co...i'll still hug and play your strings
cos you are my dear baobei
maybe i should change to sth exciting like taekwondo..really
im not kidding wor...dont think i playing around only
when i really wan it...I WAN IT
taekwondo is like so cool man...flexibility i have... a bit
i noe i cannot split my legs...but still can go down quite a lot
i can kick high de...rmb tat time...racial harmony day?
we play the limbo, bimbo, zero-point wadeva..
i can kick quite high to reach the band right?
see? i have potential...wakaka
i can put my leg behind my head ok?
heahea...not bad right my flexibility..
you can put your leg behind your head or not?
ok lah stop le...or else you all start complaining again..
oh ya...baoyi...your blog skin like not your style
its nice lah...but tooo contrasting le..
after i read half way and switch to msn conv screen
i can see horizontal lines wor
like tat right...my eyesight spoiling soon..
ok stop here..jiu ci ge bi..
next episode i'll announce to the whole world my results
cos suddenly i feel like...WAHAHA~